Killing me softly

4.

Ronnie;

I had managed to drop Max off rather quickly and he didn't ask a lot of questions as he typically does. I honestly don't know what I would have told him. I mean if I was honest I don't think he'd like to hear me say;

Oh yeah I'm just gonna go and sit outside little red's home and wait for her to get home and see what her nightly routine is. Just cause I'm a little curious.

He did tell me not to do it but I really can't help myself, I have to go see her. Seeing her through the cameras wasn't enough. I need a closer view, one where I also don't need to hack into anything.

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The street is dimly lit by the street lamps and I pull down the road shutting my lights off. I pull into the darkness almost infront of her house; not quite though, so I won't be noticed as easily.

Her car isn't in the drive way and it's 2:30am, I'm not a bar owner so I don't know what it takes to close a bar down for the night but you'd think she would be home by now. I sigh leaning back in the seat and making sure my hoodie is pulled over my head and my mask is at the bridge of my nose.

All of a sudden I remember If I really wanted to I could hack back into the cameras and see what she's doing. Nah that's too much, right? Fuck it, I'm Ronald fucking radke damn it and I'll do whatever it is I please to do. So with that I whip out my phone and get back into my hacking app and hack back into the cameras.

" there ya are, little red." I say softly with a smirk

She stands behind the bar her head in her hands almost as if she's defeated. Papers swirl around her on the bar top, I can't help but zoom in on them.

Past due
Past due
Past due
Past due
Past due

Thats all I can see in big red letters across the pages. I furrow my brows a little, how can she be so past due and the place is full almost every time I go there. I have to do something to help her. I can't let her drown and loose the bar, it just wouldn't sit right with me.

I begin clicking in and out of my bank as well as going back to the camera footage to see which bills need paying the most, and proceed to pay them without question, to me it's just money I can always make it back. As I paid of majority of the bills leaving two of the cheaper ones behind I look back into the cameras.

A man now stands next to her; they're talking about the past due bills.

" I'll figure it out Tony don't worry, here's the money for the light and water bill plus the drink supply bill. The other ones are just my personal shit." She says her voice still sounding like smooth honey even though the defeat and aggravation is evident.

" alright J, need any help closing up?" The man named Tony asks

" all good Tony, you can leave I'll be fine." She says with a small smile

For some odd reason that man being that close to her got my blood boiling and honestly I don't know why. We haven't even had a conversation but as I said before something is drawing me to her telling me to stay close. I watch the man leave the bar and look up from the cameras to see said man coming out of the bar. Don't do it Ronnie. Don't. Do it.

I look back down in the camera and see she now ties her dark auburn locks into a bun and wipes some tears from her face. She turned around to where the liquor was and proceeded to take two shots and shake her head lightly.

My body aches and mind floods with all the possibilities of why she could be crying. Stress? Bills? Sadness? Loneliness? Emptiness maybe? All of them combined? I don't like seeing those tears run down her cheeks whatever is making her sad I will gladly destroy it just to make sure she's always smiling.

I watch her closely as she puts all the bills into her bag, taking out a medicine bottle and taking one of the little white pills. I'm not going to jump to conclusions and say she's a pill popper because she doesn't look like that, but whatever it is she takes it for I'll look in to it.

I notice she's walking out the door so I sign off the hacking app and wait patiently to see her headlights coming down the street. It's only a 10 min drive so I know she will be here in no time. Hopefully she doesn't see my car let alone recognize it from the street, my cover would be fucked completely if my windows weren't darker than dark.

My heart races as I wait patiently, I grab my chest trying to slow it down, tell myself not to get worked up over nothing; but at the same time it's not nothing if my heart is beating from its chest.

Finally headlights, I recognize them as hers. She slowly pulls into her home and sits in the car momentarily, I suppose getting her things together. As I continue to watch I see her small body slip from the car and walk slowly up to the front door.

Her hips swaying in ease with every step, making it look like she is walking down the runway; I mean it is fitting seeing as how she could distract a dangerous man and hold his attention for lord knows how long. I snap from my thoughts when the lights in her home cut on.

She looks out the front curtain in her living room, for a second she stopped and almost seemed as though she could see me right through the dark tint, reading what's on my mind. She closes the curtain back and I see her disappear and another light clicks on.

" how perfect that your bedroom is right in front, little red." I say softly to myself smirking

I watch intently through the sheer curtains,though they're not as sheer as the ones in the living room but I can still see her as if she would be right infront of me, maybe that's just because I've imagined every inch of her; not that I actually wanted to, but because my brain does some wild shit in its alone time.

She slips off her platforms rubbing her feet for a minute before walking into the bathroom. She stays in there for about 20 mins and returns to her room in only a towel. My eyes almost seemingly zoom in; seeing the water droplets fall from her hair and slide down her perfect skin. She disappears again, coming out of what I assume is the closet in nothing but very very short little red shorts and a white sports bra.

I watch her walk around her room as she finishes her night routine then she heads for the living room turning off the lights. No dinner? With prescription medication? And liquor. That's Unacceptable. She finally makes it back to her room and comes to the window parting the curtains a little looking out into the darkness of the night. Her green eyes glimmering perfectly as I once again feel her eyes lock onto me.

As she slips into bed and turns out the light, I sigh deeply closing my eyes for a moment.

"Ronnie.." I can hear her, she sounds so close; my name slipping from her lips like silk

" I can't wait to make you scream it out for everyone to hear little red." I say to myself smirking as I start the car keeping my lights off till I'm far down the road