Killing me softly

20.

Jade;

We sat like that for a while, both of us staying still as if time has completely frozen looking into eachothers eyes. His face is even more beautiful than I could have imagined. The electricity flowing through my hand from finally touching him sends chills and goosebumps to every inch of me.

"Ronnie?" I say softly and he hums a little looking from my eyes to my lips back to my eyes nearly making me weak in the knees

" take me with you." I whisper. Our faces now closer together not realizing we've drifted closer, almost seemingly giving in to eachother

As if our bodies and hearts understand the assignment but our brains haven't fully processed it yet.

" I can't little fire." He says shaking his head and standing

More tears slip my eyes as my heart shatters. This is not happening; I have him right where I need him most and I'll be fucking damned if he thinks he's gonna walk away and out of this house without me.

" yes you can, what's holding you back." I say now standing with him as his back is turned to me

I place my hand along his back gently and he turns around to me. His face is blank but his eyes say everything they need to.

" I live a dangerous life. I don't want you involved in that." He says looking down at me as I only come to his chest without my platforms on

" that doesn't scare me... what scares me is someone else taking what's yours." I say to him placing my hands on his chest

His breathing stops momentarily as he takes a deep breath. His eyes are softer as he looks at me knowing I have a damn good fucking point. Please let this work.

" fucking shit little red." He says to me his voice deep and raspy; shaking his head.

"Take me with you Ronnie, please I'm begging you. Don't leave me here for someone else." I say to him and he knows exactly what I mean when I say that and again I hit him with another valid ass point

He instantly grabs my face with both of his large hands. They're rough to the touch yet gentle. His cologne intoxicating me as if I just drank 3 shots.

" little fire of mine, I need you to understand something. If I take you with me there will be a lot of people that aren't gonna agree. There might be guns, bullets knives and I know for sure some kind of blood involved. Does that scare you?" He says to me sternly but gently; our faces so damn near close together that if I leaned in maybe 3-4 inches we'd def kiss and that thought makes my heart skip multiple beats

" I don't care. I'm not scared of that, I've seen some wild things in my life. Traumatizing things. Your lifestyle won't be one of them trust me. Just please Ronnie, don't leave." I say to him begging him again as he wipes the last few stray tears from my eyes

" god damn it." He whispers looking down and back up to me

He stands not saying anything else; cold spots now popping up where his hands once were. I can tell his gears are turning inside his head as he looks me over standing there infront of him with nothing on but the hoodie I had on earlier and his favorite; red silk panties. He rubs his face and sighs.

Before I can even think about the events happening, he grabs my hand pulling me close and walking through my home. I take one last good look at everything. I'll be back for the stuff one day, I won't be gone forever. But right now I'm more worried about being with Ronnie and wherever fate decides to take us. I grab my purse off the counter which has everything in it that I need for right now.

We step outside; the weather is chilly as the breeze hits my bare legs. I start to shiver as I try and lock my door, luckily though Ronnie notices this and takes my keys locking the door for me. He pulls me close and pulls his face mask up before turning to face the street. His head is on a swivel as he looks out for anything that's suspicious.

He unlocks his car and we go to the passenger side he opens the door and stands close until I'm in the car safely.

" well, I had certainly planned this a different way." He says getting in and starting the engine

" so you were gonna take me one day and this wasn't just a decoy?" I say to him as he flicks the car vents my way allowing the warm air flow onto me

" yes little red, I had it all planned out but you did a good job at convincing me otherwise." He says gripping the steering wheel

I nod my head and remain silent for a few minutes letting my mind wander off. So the feeling was more than mutual and he actually planned on keeping me around for good, that helps answer a lot of things.

I know he said he lives a dangerous life but dealing with a crazy Russian man trying to get after you is way more dangerous and with being in that house I'm practically a sitting duck waiting to be taken. If Ronnie can do what he's done to stalk me so far; well I'd like to say watch over; it sounds a lot less demeaning. Then there's not telling what that other man could do