Killing me softly

10.

Jade;

The night terrors didn't come out to play last night but my brain did dream of this R man for whatever reason; I'm not complaining but Jesus I didn't think someone I don't even know could have a hold on me like this. Before him there was nobody, I was alone and still am pretty much alone; well to an extent now that I have a stalker. I wasn't in tune with being with someone let alone giving my heart away again too soon.

I don't really know a lot about love. Yeah I had boyfriends in high school and little flings but not having my dad around during those teenage years to show me how a man is supposed to love a woman was really hard on me, plus even if he didn't die my mother was a druggie, and that's not proper love, I know that.

Either way as my mind runs off in its own little direction I slide out of bed and check the window. The car is gone like he was never even here last night. My heart aches slightly but I shake my head and push the thought away.

I go into the bathroom flat ironing my hair and doing my make up, before heading for the kitchen. Shit; groceries need to be bought. Fuck it I'll just order something. So with that I put my order in and take a seat on the couch turning on TVD. IYKYK.<

Only 4 hours till I gotta open up the bar and do my routine job serving patrons. Hopefully tonight goes smoother than last night. I definitely don't need that same Russian man coming back. If it wasn't for R, who knows what that man would have done to me, which leads me to my next thing that I'm so fucking greatful that he was watching me in that moment. Sounds weird I know trust me but remember what I just said.

I would try and do your typical girl FBI shit but it's kinda hard to do that when I don't even know his full name. I throw my head back into the pillow sighing as I do so. Why does mystery man gotta be such a mystery.

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Ronnie;

Sleep finally came last night; oddly enough. I kept having dreams, ones of which I was not haunted by; but instead, they were like visions. Leading me into a future, one not too far away, leading me into certain events that could possibly be prevented. That's if these events actually were to happen and my mind didn't just go on a full blown rampage with itself.

Time ticks by slowly, as I wait a little longer to do what I had intended to do; cameras are ready to go, all I need now is for little red to get to work so I can go in and place them, the only reason I'm following through with this is because, again if my "visions" are correct they'll come in handy.

" yo, you heard yet?" Max says coming from the house joining me on the deck.

" heard what?" I say turning my head as he nears the table and pulls out a chair sitting down

" two words, auction houses." He says to me and I furrow my brows at him clearly confused.

" okay? And what about them? You can buy anything there, guns. antiques. Paintings." I say shaking my head turning back to my laptop curiously watching the city street cameras

" I'm not talking about those auction houses. It's fucked up shit man. Look." He says handing me his phone

" terrible is in on it. Going under an alias name. A friend of mine, who just so happens to have a friend, who knows Alex had heard that Alex was trynna find something good to sell off." Max says and my head whips up he isn't saying what I think he's fucking saying right?

" I'm not stupid Ronnie." He says again after my long silence

" I didn't say you were, max. " I say shaking my head handing him his phone back

" I know you've been watching that girl, and will continue to. But Ronnie, understand there's something nasty coming; if I were you I would back out now while it's not too late." He says standing and I turn to him scoffing

" so you come to tell me that Alex is in on these auction houses, wants something good to sell, then have the nerve to mention her, and expect me to just back away from this? In other words; it seems to me like Alex has been watching her for far longer than I have, and thought that the other night he was gonna get his chance to nap her." I say to him, anger seeping through my lips

" you know Alex is fucking crazy bro; he's Russian!! He will kill you in broad fucking daylight and not even bat a damn eye! Then turn around and sell your god damn body parts on the black market!" He partially yells getting aggravated

I know he wants me to back off so I don't get myself killed trying to protect someone.. it's already happened once before... deal gone wrong and max almost lost his head; literally. If it wasn't for me max wouldn't be standing here in front of me, but still she's important to me, and I've grown to slightly accept the fact I don't want to see her hurt, she's too precious for that. So I won't stop and I won't back down. Not now; not ever.

" I'm not gonna stop Alex. I know it sounds crazy but without even having to say anything; something is telling me to keep her around, as if life wouldn't be so dark and fucking bitterly cold if she was close to me. I protected you didn't I?" I finally said to him standing to face him and folding my arms

" that's not the same thing Ron. I literally was almost decapitated, but this; whatever this is, as a brother I will say I want you happy but don't die trying to get there, and end up not making it in the end. We got a deal later tonight by the way. At hot shots. Normal time. Gotta prepare for what's to come." He says shaking his head and walking away

Thinking about all that was said my visions become more and more apparent which is why I'm not gonna slow down; instead I need to claim what's mine first.

" ohh little red, you have started a war without even having to do anything." I sigh sitting back down and placing my head in my hands

I need her safe. With me. Alongside me. If not, my chance at feeling what I would presume as happiness will never come, and in an odd way my mind and heart is longing for that happiness. I don't want to live this bad dark and cold life forever; because inevitably one day it could kill me, but like max said if I'm not careful I could die before I even get to be happy.

" god damn it little red... why did you gotta go off and flip the script.." I say again to myself shaking my head

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Authors note:
Hey guys! Sorry it's taken so long for this chapter; I've been caught up with a lot of life shit but I really hope you are enjoying the story, there's more to come ❤️