Why Him ?

Darren

Alice's P.O.V.

It was 6am when I got up again to find that Jazz and everyone else were still asleep, the sun would be rising soon so I grabbed my dressing gown and headed back along to Darren's room. I knocked lightly and headed in, I walked over to Darren's bed when I entered and shook him a little "Daz" I said as he stirred a little. "Daz wake up" I stated as he turned to look at me. "What's wrong Alice?" he asked as he rubbed his eyes and looked at me, "I'm setting off balloons for nana and granda at sunrise which is in a few minutes are you coming to do it too?" I replied, he nodded his head and started to get up, I grabbed his shirt from the floor and threw it at him; he pulled it on and we headed out of the cabin as quickly and quietly as possible. When we got outside I grabbed some balloons from the side and began blowing them up, my cards were ready to be attached and in my pocket, while Darren was writing his I blew the balloons up for him.

I tied the balloons with a ribbon and handed them to Darren once he was finished writing so he could tie his cards onto the balloons I tied mine onto the balloons and waited for Darren as I walked down the steps and next to the burning out fire.  "on 3" Daz stated I nodded and he began to count "3...2...1" and we both let go of the balloons in our hands. My camera flashed around 10 seconds later as the sun rose and as Darren and I hugged.  We stood hugging each other for a while before we moved, just watching the balloons float through the sky.

Once we separated I headed to my camera and picked it up, Darren wrapped his arm around my shoulders as I shivered and we walked back into the cabin. "I'm going back to bed" he stated as he let go of me and started to walk away, I nodded and went through to the kitchen to  make a hot chocolate. I stood waiting for the kettle to boil as I looked through the photos from last night on my camera. As I got to the last photos I found one that took the air from my lungs and shocked me, I was standing near the fire alone, nobody was near me but I could make out a figure that looked so much like Liam it brought a tear to my eye. It looked like he was trying to hold my hand and get my attention. I stood staring at it, I don't know how much time had passed before I heard someone coming through to the kitchen, the kettle had went cold again so I clicked it back on and waited once more as I heard someone enter the kitchen behind me. I didn't want to look in fear of it being who I thought it might be.

I looked down at the counter as I heard the person move around the kitchen to get a glass I guessed. "Are you ok?" I heard them say "I'm fine" I replied as I poured the hot water into my cup. "You don't look fine Alice" they stated again, "I said im fine Alex, leave me alone" I replied as I picked up my cup and began to walk out of the kitchen. "Please don't walk away from me" he said as I got to the door "what do you want me to do?" I replied as I turned my head to look at him. "Just don't walk away from me again" he stated as he walked towards me, I stood still not knowing what to do, as he got near me he took my cup and placed it on the bar, then when he turned around he engulfed me in a hug. I accepted and  hugged him back as tears began rolling down my eyes again. "Everything's going to be okay Alice" he stated as he kissed the top of my head, I shook my head as he hugged me tighter, I pushed him away from me and wiped the tears from my face, I picked up my cup and continued leaving the kitchen leaving Alex in the kitchen as I heard him say "I still love you".

I headed back to my room and sat down at the desk with my hot chocolate in front of me and I looked in the mirror, I could see Jasper laying asleep in our bed. I turned to look at him properly as I took hold of my cup once again and placed it to my lips, I sipped the hot liquid and continued to watch Jasper sleep, once I was finished with my cup I set it back down on my dresser and turned back to look at Jazz as he started to stir awake. I sat at the dresser and fiddled with my ring as he woke and looked up and around the room, once he got his bearings and spotted me still sitting at the dresser, he moved from the bed and walked over to me, he knelt down and took my hands in his and looked me straight it the eye. "What's wrong sweetie?" he asked as he kissed the back of my knuckles, "I can't take this any more Jasper?" I replied looking down at my hands as he held them "Baby please don't give up, we can get through this again" he answered with nothing but love coming from him. "I don't think I can" I sighed looking him in the eye once again, "Alice I love you we can fight this again, you know that we can" he stated squeezing my hands, "I love you too, but I can't put you through this again" I replied removing my hands from his. "We can do this, you can do this, I'm not going to lose you again" he stated with love and worry in his eyes as he stood up and picked me up, carrying me back to the bed. We lay down together Jasper holding onto me for dear life. I kept thinking about the last time I lost control, if it hadn't been for Ben I wouldn't be here; I would have been dead, with Liam, happy and at peace with the love of my life.

The Next Morning

Jasper's P.O.V.

I woke up to see that Alice was still curled up in my arms, tears stained her face, but she looked peaceful; I gently pecked her lips and lay with her till she woke, I'm guessing around an hour later. Her beautiful eyes flickered open and she yawned, once she was finished she looked up at me and smiled. "morning beautiful" I said as she cuddled into me a little more. "mmmm" she murmured as she closed her eyes again and smiled some more. I pecked her on the lips again and then I pecked her nose, getting a giggle from her. I smiled knowing that she must be feeling better than what she had last night. 

Alice and I spent most of the day wrapped up in bed watching films until Pam came to make sure we were both okay, and to tell us that she had food ready for us all, to go outside. Alice and I got up and went through to the kitchen to see that everyone was out there and helping to take some food out onto the deck, we started to help by picking up some drinks and taking them out. In around 5 minutes we all had the food on the deck and were outside sitting on the deck, on blankets eating food and talking about things. Alice was very quiet and kept out of the convocation unless something was directed at her. Alex soon cracked the ice and asked Alice what was wrong, but she dodged the question and started talking about how nice it was to spend time with everyone up at the cabin in so long.

I generally am very worried about her, especially after what she said last night; I can't lose her again, I won't let her go again, she means to much to me. As we all sat around on the blanket, Alice in between my legs, I held onto her tighter and pecked her neck once more, following by whispering in her ear "I love you baby". She smiled like she was the happiest girl in the world, but looking in her eyes I could still see the pain and hurt she was feeling, and I was going to help make sure that it goes away.

We all sat talking for a couple of hours, once all of the food was gone we decided to help Pam get rid of everything, most of the food was on paper plates so they all went in the bin, but all of the glasses and jugs needed washing. "I'll do those Pam!" Alice stated as she took the rest of the dirty dishes from Pam and stated to run the hot water, "thank you sweetie" Pam replied. "I'll dry them for you Alice" Alex stated as he walked up to Alice and lent over her to grab a towel, I still don't like how causal those two are together especially Alex, but I'm not gonna stop her being friends with him.  Alice nodded and turned to look at me as I stood against the bench; "I'll come straight along once were finished babes, we can watch some more films" She stated smiling at me, I nodded my head and replied "Okay, I'll be waiting for you" with a wink and then glare at Alex, who looked utterly shocked that I would say something like that in front of him. At the end of the day she is MY girl. 

I walked back along to our room and took the chance to set up our room rather romantically, I lit some candles and put some music on low. Waiting for my girl to come back to me.