Sunsets

Brian

-- For my Nonna Gaetana, may you rest in peace for eternity. May all your pain disapear and may you create more memories with Nonno Francessco since you had been seperated for so long, I love and miss you, Nonna. (June 18 1918 - July 8 2015)

XOXO, I hugged the floor, and guidance counsellors

_______________________________________________________________________________

My head is down. I look at my old converse I've had since the beginning of grade seven. They were royal blue converse but now the color has faded. Stained with mud since Waverly had a lot of mud on the field and barely any grass.

I make my way to room ninety without lifting my head. It's been this way for a month now.

I haven't had any more serious encounters with Bella other than accidentally bumping into her one day at school. Colton's always with her now, with his arm around her, holding her close and protectively. It makes me feel sick. They have lunch when I have math class and eat lunch in front of Jake Lorenzo's locker, with his girlfriend Bethany Kelly. Unfortunately, his locker is right in front of

Usually, I just stand close to a group of people and stay quiet so they don't notice me.

Sadly, today is not the case.

I'm late. I got called to the guidance counsellor at the very end of science class to make sure I was doing alright with all my honours classes I'm taking. She called it a 'check up'.

That was no check-up.

That was a full evaluation, my friend.

I'm ten minutes late now. I think about running but I have the fear of tripping over someone or something and making a humiliation out of myself.

So I walk slowly and carefully down the endless hallway with thousands of doors leading thousands of different paths.

Oh why did I choose to go to this high school and not another one?

I walk up the stairs to the third floor. As soon as I turn right, I can see Bella from a distance. Right in front of Jake's locker with Colton's arm around her.

I start to consider my options. I could just ditch class and hideout in a bathroom stall until this period is over or walk right past them as if it didn't affect me one bit.

I take my chance and start walking towards them, slowly and silently.

I look down though and watch my dirty blue converse move upwards. I look up and see that now they are all looking at me, shocked.

I shrug and put my head back down and keep walking. I get lost in my thoughts briefly.

The floor is interrupting my thoughts as it gets closer and closer and boy's laughter louder and louder.

I've been tripped by Colton.

Oh how much I do appreciate him.

I put my hands fast in front of me to stop my head from hitting the ground. My hands throb with numb pain and so do my elbows from the force I had when I fell.

I get up and for a second Bella's eyes meet mine. I put my head back down and walk into room ninety where the teacher is too busy solving her own math problem to notice I'm late. I ignore the stares I get from the other kids in this class and walk to the back of the class and take a seat.

The laughter has died down now but Bella has an aggravated voice. She's talking to Colton and her sass is getting the best of him. I can't make out what she's saying though.

The conversation has faded but I see Bella walking away through the door and Colton chasing after her.

I take out my math textbook and open up last night's homework and pretend to pay attention to the teacher when really I'm thinking about why Bella was talking to him with a lot of sass. It made Bella sound like a huge diva and mean popular girl, which in fourth grade she swore she would never be.

***

My house was empty. Ann went to Laura's house and my dad is still at work. The air is still and the only noise I hear is the radio personality's for the four o'clock news.

I'm staring through the glass doors from the kitchen. The ocean is barely moving but the wind today is strong.

I turn off the TV and head outside to the spot where I asked out Bella in third grade.

Where I held her for the very first time ever.

This gives me a good feeling. A feeling of hope which I haven't felt in a long time. A feeling of love which is a luxury to me.

I feel my mom's hand on my shoulder telling me to stay strong. When I look it's not there.

I sit on the sand and listen to the noise of the tiny ocean waves crashing. The smell of salt water burned my nose. I look around, the beach isn't packed at all today. There's an elderly couple to my far right and a couple with two young kids  and a baby that the mother was rocking back and forth.

They look extremely happy together. The oldest, the boy, is chasing the girl. The little girl fall and he helps her back up.

I smile at them from the distance.

I look straight ahead and watch the birds fly over the ocean fearlessly.

"Brian?" A feminine voice says. I turn around and see her.

Bella.

"Oh... um... hi.." I stutter over my words.

She sits next to me. "I dumped Colton." She tells me.

"Really?" I ask surprised.

"I don't have the same feelings for him anymore and I've been thinking about doing it for a while. Then I saw what they did to you and decided that it was the right thing to do." She says confidentially. She looks at me and smiles. Her eyes are red and it must be from crying.

"It's funny you came here by the way. This was the spot you asked me out in third grade. That was one of the best nights ever for me. I still remember it very well."

I can't believe she remembers it.

I can't believe that I meant something to someone.

She looks at me and continues. "When you held me, I felt so safe. You used to be really romantic."

"I was?" I say without thinking it through. I sound extremely stupid right now.

She laughs at me. "Yes, you were. You gave me butterflies when I would see you. All I wanted to do was run into your arms."

I laugh. "I take it that I was special then."

"You were to me."

"You meant the entire world to me."

"You meant the entire universe to me." She says to me, with a smile.

And then she looks at me. Her eyes lost in mine. She puts one hand on my right cheek, leans in, kisses me, and a thousand fireworks explode.

______________________

I am back. I feel terrible for abandoning and then giving you a short chapter. But, I had stuff for school and then we went on vacation immediately after and then my grandmother got very sick and then we had to come back from vacation early because my grandmother passed away, but none of that is an excuse for this crappy chapter.

BUT OMFG BELLA KISSED BRIAN WHAT IS LIFEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE??????????

Love you all <3

Kaylaa