Sunsets

Brian

Fake smiles, wondering if I'm in love, and Colten's stupidity.

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I feel the ground shift underneath my feet. Bella makes the world seem like a bigger place. Like there's more to welcome, more to explore. When in reality, the world is plain and repetitive.

I don't go home just yet. I stay to enjoy the salty fresh air on the beach. I watch old couples walk along the shore. Sometimes they have grandchildren with them, sometime's they don't. There's teenage couples too. I think the teenager's are paticularly romantic with there partner because there just getting to know love, this is the first time there feeling this feeling, they feel invincible, and they know how to put there partner first.

That's how I feel right now. Sure, I'm pretty young to have this feeling but so far I have heard there's no age on love. I mean, Romeo was a lot older then Juliet and they fell in deep everlasting love. Well, everlasting if Juliet survived. It's my mom's favorite love story and is always comparing people to the characters in the story.

The chilly ocean is kissing my toes and the sunset is a dark romantic red. The red quickly turns darker and darker until the dark clouds begin to take over.

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The Next Day

I roll over to face the window in my bedroom. Thoughts of last night take over my mind and control my feelings. Bella's impeccable eyes staring into mine... full of hope, full of wanderlust. My eyes stare back into hers, full of love, full of mystery. I think looking into each other's eyes is one of the most intimate things you can do, so I like to do it often. But Colten told me not to overdo it because it is also a very creepy thing to do.

Does she know that she's my everything, my in and out, my day one, possibly even my forever? Does she know that I care more about her wellbeing then mine? Does she know I'd give up food, water, and everything else essential to life for her?

I get up with my cheery attitude. What a great way to start the day. My dad always says that life is too short to be spent an angry person. Embrace every second of your life, may not be the best circumstances, but your life is someone else's ideal life.

Getting dressed is surprisingly challenging today. I wanted to make a good impression on Bella even though last night was a huge success for me. "Mom!" I yell loud from my bedroom, forgetting she was dead. The impact and regret feeling suddenly takes over me as I wish I spent more time then I did with her. Wishing I stayed home that year from school to watch over her and help her when she needed it.

I shake my head as if I'm shaking memories out of my brain. These things happen, I tell myself. There are kids even younger then me that have no mom. If anything, my mom is watching over me more then before because she get's to watch me from the sky, with Jesus on her side. Therefore, she will always lookout for Ann, my dad, and I.

I finally agree on jeans and a hoodie from Akor, the hit store every kid shops at this year. The sweater is green with the Aeko label on it which is a elephant. Tonight, when I see Bella again I shall bring her some flowers because of how special she is.

I look at the time and there's five minutes until the bus arrives. I run downstairs, grab my backpack and yell bye to my dad. I wait outside my house for the yellow bus that says 'CLEARBEACH SCHOOL DISTRICT' on it, preparing for the day mentally. Finally the bus arrives and everyone on the bus is silent which is odd. Usually there is food fights and screaming on the bus. Today, people are listening to music on there MP3 players or reading a book. I sit in my usual place which is beside Colten.