In The End (Part 2)

Chapter 12: TENSION

JAX

'Take in a deep breath' the nurse says before injecting the needle into Milas arm. I hold her hand as I watch her look away, her face turning pale.
'This is horrible' she squeezes my hand.
'Annddd it's all over' the nurse places the cotton ball on her arm before telling us that the results will come to us by this evening.

We get ready to leave the room

'How are you feeling?' I ask.
She shrugs. 'Nauseous' replying back.
I grab her bag for her and hold her hand as we leave the room. 'Shall we get something to eat?' I ask. She nods with little energy. 'I think that might be a good idea, I haven't eaten all day'

....

We arrive to a café and order our food.
Mila hasn't realised that I went missing for a couple of hours yesterday which I'm glad of, but I hate keeping secrets from her.

'How are you feeling now?' I ask.
'Much better love, thank you' she smiles.

I think about everything Daisy said yesterday.
It's been painful. I haven't slept since last night.
'Your eyes are so sunken, did something happen last night?' Mila snaps me out from my thoughts.
I clear my throat and shake my head.
'I had to stay up...cause of work' I lie.
'Oh..I see' she nods before taking a sip of her iced tea.

'Here is your chicken wrap'
The waitress places the food on the table before leaving.
Mila looks down at the plate and claps her hand.
'I'm so hungry I can devour this whole thing'
She picks up the wrap and takes a huge bite. I chuckle at her face when she takes the first bite.
'Easy there, it's not running away' I joke.
She rolls her eyes and frowns
'Even if it was I would chase it' she giggles.

I look out the window. Looking at the busy street.
Everything feels slow. As if I'm still waiting for something that's not going to happen...

'Love?' Mila touches my hand. I jerk my hand away before realising I was zoned out.
'Sorry..what was it?' I scratch my jaw.
'Are you okay?' She asks me in a worried tone. She looks offended yet also worried at the way I yanked my hand away. 'I'm just tired' I say.
'When we get back home, take a nap' she places her hand back on my hand.
'I don't have time for naps. I need to go to the office'
'Oh...what time will you be back?' She asks disappointed.
'I'll be back in the evening' I say, knowing that the reason she asked me when I'll be back is so that we find out the results of the blood test together.
'Goodie!' She smiles.

....

10pm:

I'm late. Shit in the office has been hectic and I wasn't able to leave until 9pm.
I know mila is going to be upset. I told her I would be home by the evening. It still is the evening but it's later than what she wanted.

I enter the door code and go inside my apartment. It's very quiet inside which makes me believe mila is somewhere raging about the time I just arrived home.

When I pass by the kitchen I see her sitting around the kitchen island. She has her head down with her phone next to her.

I walk towards her, gently tapping her back.
She's asleep.

Fuck i feel horrible.

She's been waiting for me for god knows how long. Today was supposed to be the day we find out whether she is pregnant or not, and I missed it.

I'm becoming less of a man and less of a husband. I'm hating the man I am becoming towards mila.
'Mila' I stroke her hair, gently trying to wake her up.
She moans. Her head lifting up slowly.
'Jax?' She says in her tired raspy voice.
'Come on, let's go to the bedroom' I say, trying to lift her up but she yanks my hand away.
'You're late' she looks away from me.
I sigh. 'I know love. I'm sorry. The office was in a mess'
'Is this office always in a mess, every single day?' Her voice is oddly calm but stern. I should be worried but I'm just as tired to the point where my ears feel numb.
'Did you get the results?' I ask.
She doesn't reply. Instead she stands up from the chair and walks away from me.
I walk right behind her as we both enter our bedroom.