In The End (Part 2)

Chapter 16: STAY

DAISY

It was no surprise to me that jax rented out the whole resturant for the night.

On the way to the resturant he said he specifically wanted a private night out so that the paparazzi wouldn't catch us together. I was confused. Why wouldn't he want to be seen with me?

His divorce news hasn't come up on the news yet but it will sooner or later.

But thinking about it now, he's right.

Not only do I not want to be blamed for his divorce but I also don't want Micheal to find out we're back together via a gossip channel on channel 4.

Micheal still has huge grudge against jax. It's been going on for years. No thanks to me.

He claims it's all done and dusted on his part, but I know it's not true.

Every time jax's name is mentioned he tenses up.
I could always tell from the way he would ball up his fists into a tight knot and try his hardest not to shout at anyone to stop talking about jax.

If Micheal finds out that im seeing jax. It's over for me.
He will stop talking to me for good.

I get sudden chills down my spine. The ambience is calm and cozy. There's classical music sounding from the pianist. It's weird. Before, it used to be just me and jax at home, eating whatever there is. Or it was us at the beach...in Bournemouth.

The bitter taste of how everything ended tastes sharp.

'So...' I clear my throat whilst cutting my steak.
'Tell me everything' I begin.

I want to know everything. Where he met her. Where he got married.

It will sting, but I need to know in order to move past it.

'Tell you everything?' He chuckles. Clearly confused with what I'm asking about.

'Yes, tell me everything that happened in the last six years'

Jax groans. He leans back on the chair and rolls his tongue against his cheek.

'Alright. I guess it's time you know'

Time I know?
More like I have the right to know.

This man has been keeping an eye on me since he moved to New York. He knew every date I went on. Every time I went somewhere. He probably even knows how many times I had sex with Preston. Not that it was a lot.

'I met mila five years ago. A year after I moved to new York. We met at a bar downtown. She was cool..had a comforting conversation with her'

I know I said I want to know everything but do I really need to know about the comforting conversations they had?

Moving on.

'It started off as a simple friendship but then turned into a fling..' once he finishes his last sentence he looks at me. His eyes searching for any jealousy. He doesn't know I've taught myself how to hide my feelings. He won't detect any jealousy from me. Even though I feel like grabbing this steak knife and sticking it into the wooden table.

'Sleeping with her felt like a release. A way to forget the past. A year passed and she started expressing her feelings towards me. Back then I didn't want anything. I didn't want anyone but yo-'
He clears his throat. I rip a small skin off the inside of my cheek, the taste of iorn spreading on my tongue.

I decide not to speak until he's done with talking. All I want to do is hear him out for now.

'I told her I wasn't ready for anything serious, she understood. She kept being my friend regardless. She was there for me when I needed support and a friend.'

I swallow the hard pit in my throat.
I have my hands under the table. I show more of a reaction through my hands more than my face.

'When I found out you was getting engaged...I got angry.
I knew in order to move on I had to also settle down. so I proposed to mila. At first she was confused. I never asked her to be my girlfriend, I just straight up asked her to marry me'

What the hell?

This story couldn't get any more weirder.
He didn't ask her to be his girlfriend but went straight to asking her to be his wife?

Surely she couldn't have accepted it straight away?

'She accepted and we got married' both
He puts his hands together.

Is that it?

She just easily accepted to be his wife without being his girlfriend?

I'll stop being judgemental.

'That's it?' I ask. I feel like there's more but he's not telling me.
'What else do you want me to tell you Daisy?'
He goes back to poking his salmon.
And just like me, his feelings are visible from his hands.
His hands curl up into a ball. He's frustrated.

If he's feeling frustrated then how should I feel?

I'm so over everything and want to put it all behind us.
There's nothing more important right now than our relationship. We screwed it over back then, we can't do it now. It took us both a long time to realise we both were wrong equally. I miss him and now that I'm back with him, I don't ever want to lose him again.

I sigh. Suppressing my thoughts down.

'Did you know Elle is pregnant?' I change the subject into something more wholesome.
His face lights up before he leans back into his seat again. This time with shock.
I take it kai hasn't told him.

'Fucking hell' his smile lift up to his cheeks.
'It was obvious. They survived out of all of us'

It's true. Roselle and Kai have been together since we were all kids. They always had this little romance going on. We used to make fun of both of them with the well known rhyme "Kai and roselle sitting on a tree K.I.S.S.I.N.G"

Who would've known they would be married and having a kid all these years later?

'I didn't ask but...'
I lift my head, wondering what he missed out on asking me.

'How is your...fertility?'

Right...

This is way more awkward than I thought it would be.
I guess the topic was going to come up one way or another and now is the time.

'Well, I'm able to have kids'
He looks up at me. A huge grin on his face when I tell him I'm no longer infertile.
'So you're saying..we can have kids?' He says out of the blue. My smile drops and I'm immediately taken back to when I was at the cafe a few weeks ago.

I never thought the topic of having kids together with jax would be uncomfortable until now.

It was always a big dream of mine...To have kids with him. A happy family. I always envisioned having a big family with him. A boy or girl. Maybe twins?

'Let's slow down. We just reunited' an awkward chuckle leaves my mouth.
'We waited enough. I want every second with you. I want my future to be with you Daisy' he grabs my hand. Holding it like he's giving me a proposal.

His words leave me in awe. Everything he's saying is all I want to hear. Like a sade melody.
But I learnt from my mistakes, and with everything going on with his divorce and my family. It's better to play safe rather than go with the lust.

'We have to wait a bit more, at least until I get the chance to tell Micheal'

After a few seconds he nods.
'You're right. However long it takes, I'm willing to go through it with you' his thumb rubs my palms.

'Three letters, eight words' I bite my bottom lip.

'I love you' the words leave his mouth in a soft rhythm.