TW: self deprication, bad mental health
"I didn't think I hated myself, but now I'm questioned that."
-Daniel, from Accounts from a Lonely Broadcast Station
I understand that quote.
For the longest time, I always told myself to love myself regardless. I'd seen to may of my friends get consumed with self deprecation.
But it isn't as simple as that.
Pure stubborn determination is not enough to prevent a bad spiral of mental health going to shit
Your mind is at war with itself, your conscious is weak compared to your subconscious
You can control your thoughts, but the subconscious is uncontrollable and feral
The subconscious is a monster when it hates itself
And the rest of your mind has no idea what to do, so it panics
When I was younger, I loved myself as much as I could.
But with these spirals,
my self hatred developed
YOU ARE READING
The Rants and Thoughts I am Chained To.
CasualeThe random thoughts I want to share. I don't typically have outlets to share things in whole ass paragraphs. I mean- yes, I do have friends to text, but I don't like to text in whole ass paragraphs unless necessary- Started: 10/8/2024
