FALLING in love

Chapter 34 - Waking up beside you, I'm a...

Nancy

I've hardly slept, and the sun is slowly rising. Luke is finally asleep next to me. He wasn't kidding last night when he promised to give me enough orgasms to forget everything else! I'm so sore between my legs, and my body protests as I move slightly. I don't understand where we get all that energy from. I mean, even the Duracell-bunny would tell us we are overdoing it. But we can't stop. I can't. I want him in me, desperately, every time I see him. He just feels so good and the sex is mind-blowing every time. We left the party a bit early, but on the other hand, the party started pretty early too, and people were already wasted when we went upstairs. After our little freaking hot rendezvous in the closet last night, his body tangled up with mine was all I could think about. I don't think anyone even noticed that we left. I'm absolutely in love with this casual thing we've got going on. It's fun and easy and I don't only focus on him, but also hang out with the girls at parties and during the week. Not everything is about Luke, and I think I proved that by not coming to the game yesterday. And I feel like we really took part in the party last night before disappearing to his room.

I look at him as he's lying there sleeping beside me. He's so god damn beautiful lying there completely relaxed. His lips pouty and his long lashes touching his high cheekbones. I feel like I need to pinch myself. I mean really... who looks like that?! Who looks that perfect? Luke, that's who. He looks so peaceful right now. Come to think of it, it's been a long time since he's given me that painful, regretful look. It was always there in his eyes in the beginning, telling me that he couldn't be what I needed him to be. But now that I don't need him to be my boyfriend anymore, that look has vanished. It's been replaced by an almost puzzled look, like he doesn't know what's going on or what he's feeling. But it's an improvement. Yes, the casual thing is definitely very good for the both of us. I mean, we're free to be with others if we want to. We don't own each other. And that's a good thing.

I lean in and place a soft kiss on his lips, making sure he doesn't wake up. It's still early , and I'd like to just soak him up for a bit. He smells wonderful too. He smells like Luke, and like me, and like us, and like sex, and I think it might be my favorite scent – apart from strawberries, they come pretty close. But even they don't compare to Luke. I mean, is there a better scent in the world? I think not.

Hadrien

I've hardly slept, and now the sun is rising. My ribs hurt way too much for me to fall asleep, and I seriously consider getting up to numb myself with just a bit more vodka. Angie is asleep in my bed. She looks younger when she sleeps. Her restlessness is gone from her face, and she almost looks peaceful. We didn't talk much last night after I hauled her from Nate's room and left him with the twins. Are they even twins?! Angie was too drunk, and I couldn't talk to her. I guess that will have to wait...

She was so offended, acting like a fucking victim, just because she walked in on me and the twins. I mean, she's the one sucking face with Nate right in front of me! And then she crawled into bed with him. I mean... she doesn't get to feel offended!

But still, I feel good about her sleeping in my bed. She's wearing her panties and one of my t-shirts, and It disturbs me how much I like that too. Her in my clothes. I don't know what it is about her. She's not that special. Sure, she's sexy and smart and sassy, but she's also a lot of trouble, and she might be even more messed up than I am. And that's saying something. And I guess, in the long run I need someone who's not messed up. Someone who can grant me a bit of stability. And still, I'm drawn to this girl who gets drunk and screws up. I don't know... I don't think it's just about having sex with her. And it's clearly not about saving her or some shit like that. I just... care, I guess. My knees get all weak when I accidently make her blush and she acts like she's not affected at all, but I know she is.