Everything That is Sweet and Beautiful

Chapter 23

Ryan's P.O.V

I have seen this look on my ex-mates' face. I have seen it on my rapists' face also. I clearly know this look. Look of desire. The only difference is that he didn't have that sadistic look which my ex-mate and others had. Jeremy is trying his best to control his wolf and I can see how hard it is for him. Once marked, our wolves will keep bugging us to mate, in order to feel that sense of belongingness and security, to feel that connection and it will be very strong for Alpha wolves. The fact that Jeremy controlled his desire and his wolf's also for a year, giving importance to my feelings other than anybody else, words cannot describe how much I love him and means to me. "I need some air." Jeremy said. He is now in full control. I didn't know what got over me but I stopped him when he was about to go to the balcony. Jeremy looked a little surprised but waited for me. I did the first thing that came to my mind, I kissed him. I had never kissed him on his lips, only on his cheeks and I found that I loved kissing him on his lips more than his cheeks. It felt like heaven. I felt Jeremy take the lead and the kiss I experienced is something which I have never experienced before. I feel his happiness, passion, lust and his love too. "Don't tempt me like this." He said in his husky voice, after that intense kiss. "You don't know how hard I am trying to control myself." "Who asked you to control yourself?" That's his cue. He dived in for another kiss, fully aware that I had given him permission to make me his in every way. He was so sweet and gentle to me throughout that made me wonder what did I do to deserve him. He was gentle even when penetrating me and marking me again. He kissed away all my pain and sorrows. The way he kissed the scars on my body, the scars which gave me trauma, hinting that he accepts me the way I am without any judgement. He literally worshipped me and made me realize how beautiful this mating process is. I have never felt this loved before and I never want to forget this day until I die. I became his completely. By the time we stopped, dawn has arrived, colouring the skies with orange hue. "Thank you." I heard him say. "For what?" I asked him softly. "For trusting me enough to let me mate you." he said. "It's not only trust but also love." I said. His eyes widened a little and again I came to the realization that I have not said those magical words to him. Love surely is a beautiful feeling. "I love you Jeremy. It took me quiet some time but now I know I love you so much to the point I cannot imagine a day without you. Thank you for being patient with me and I am sorry I made you wait so long." I can see some tears threatening to fall down but my alpha boy was quick to wipe them away. I realized how much my words meant to him."I love you" he whispered softly and stole another kiss from me. He didn't stop there, he kept kissing me all over my face. It's like I unleashed some high energy spirit in him and I love it. "I love you" he said "I love you too" I replied. "Lets catch some sleep." he said noticing the rays of sunlight seeping through the window. "They are going to tease us a lot." I said blushing at the thought of Amelia, Jace and other members teasing me left and right. I am not a person who sleeps in late and if I did, then they can easily guess, something is going on. "I can see Jace coming up with a bouquet." Jeremy said, laughing. Well, that comment made me look even more like a tomato. "Come on now, don't mind the others, aren't you happy?" he asked me. "Yes I am" I said in affirmative. "Then nothing else matters" he said kissing my nose. "Let's catch some sleep." I nodded and closed my eyes promising to be very honest with my feelings towards him and to always love and cherish him from this moment onwards.