Foredestined

Seventeen

Kai

Two Weeks, Six Days Later

Thursday Evening

"You love Ayla?!," Jorden exclaimed. I sigh heavily as I run a hand over the top of my head. We are chilling at my place. It's been a minute since we have hung out just the two of us, so I reached out just to see how he has been and how wedding planning has been. Yet somehow we got to talking about Ayla.

"....I really think I'm in love with her," I said.

"Damn bro! Yo....this is crazy," Jorden said.

"It's crazy as fuck. But I can never stop thinking about her Jorden. I'm wondering how her day is going. If we don't see each other every day, I go crazy. She's like a drug to me. Like I need her and want her all the time or else I don't feel right," I rambled.

"Whoa....damn Kai. Never heard you talk about anyone like that," Jorden pointed out.

"...I've never felt this way before Jorden. And this shit scares me so much," I said while sighing.

"...Why? Ayla is a great woman you know that."

"I know....I'm not worried about her. I'm worried about me. I just....I feel I always fuck up."

"....You don't Kai. What Carmen did to you....that was not your fault. Aniya...well yeah you fucked that up but.....that doesn't mean you will do the same with Ayla. Look at how you are talking about her! How would you even be able to entertain anyone else?"

"...I couldn't. I really couldn't. Like every time I close my eyes I see her. I swear...this shit is crazy.....I used to have nightmares every night Jorden about what happened to my dad. But ever since me and Ayla have gotten close....those have even stopped. She has invaded my mind Jorden. I just think about all the nice times we have had together. I picture our future together....she has me so out of character," I said while shaking my head.

"You are definitely in love," Jorden said while laughing a bit.

"I definitely am. I can't stop smiling when I think about her, I feel like weak when I am around her. When she touches me, my heart races. I just.....damn I really am in love," I said. I sigh as I groan and run a hand down my face.

"Why you sound upset by that?," Jorden said.

"....I can't tell her. At least not yet. I mean I don't think she feels that way about me," I said.

"How do you know, have you talked to her about it?," Jorden asked.

"Nah....I don't want her to think I am rushing. I am really really trying to do so good for Ayla. I want everything to be perfect all the time."

"I hear you....but that's just unrealistic at times. And not how love or relationships work," Jorden said.

"Damn....yeah you're right. I've never fallen this fast. But how could I not? Ayla's so fucking perfect. She's gorgeous, sexy as fuck, smart, driven, successful, sweet, caring, hilarious.....damn she got me gone!," I said. Jorden and I share a laugh as I shake my head.

"She definitely got you gone! Damn bro....I think when you feel the time is right, you should tell her you have these feelings developing. I'm sure she is wondering where your head is at. Like you see yourself being with her right?"

"....I really do. I haven't done a relationship in a minute but....I want to be in a relationship with Ayla."

"And what else do you see for you and Ayla?"

"Honestly bro? I wasn't sure if I was the marriage type but shit.....I would definitely marry Ayla down the line. Have a kid or two. That's what I see with her. I don't see the point of every being with anyone else as long as I'm breathing."