the silent heartbeat

Chapter 5

Chapter 5

I wasn't able to focus in class on the last four subjects for the rest of the day, so I ended up learning nothing. Good thing that for the sixth to the ninth subject, subject professors didn't called me for a recitation or participation. Maybe they felt how clouded my mind that's why they didn't called me.

Whatever the reason is, I must thank God for that because of the fact that I can't answer or participate well in class makes me vulnerable to harsh reprimand coming from them. Although it feels good for my part, my inner consciousness is telling me that I should participate well next time. And true to my experience, I haven't talked to Claudia and Candice about it nor I was able to interact with them. I don't know what is happening to me. I can't even bring myself into an interactive conversation or do the things I could do normally before.

I assumed this stemmed from my experience a while ago in Emberthorne where I met several people who looks normal in the outside but is really magical in the inside. I also met people that are willing to help me in this so-called 'journey' towards finding Oliver. 

Now, speaking of this mission of mine called 'journey towards finding Oliver Greenwich ', I really haven't got any idea about what Elowen meant by that. I mean, I have long enough accepted that Oliver died, even though I have heard his voice afew times today and the last two weeks ago. But to be honest, if I was being questioned about him, I'd say that I wished he would be given another chance to be resurrected and revivied in life. 

That's the only thing that I want in this hell of a like journey. 

And to know that a living human would find a dead soul just to wish for something vague is just strange. Its...paranormal, its unworldly. Any person who'd experience something like this, they'd see this as a strange and mysterious phenomenon rather than a trilling and exciting one.

But if I were to be honest, I really would want to see Oliver again. I really would want to see him so badly. I missed him so badly. I miss everything about him. But if I were to see him only to ask a wish from him because he's a chosen person by God only makes it bad. If I'd go there just by transacting that kind of request that Elowen said, then its best if I don't go. 

But good gracious, I really wanted to see him. I want to at least got a hold of him or even hug him or even hear his soothing voice again. Because I'm tired of living this world where it fosters evilness. 

Suddenly I remember what Elowen said. If I want to go to Emberthorne, I can just wish for it and something will bring me there, or locate mirrors back at the house and see if its glowing. If it is indeed glowing, then I can go there. But wait, how can I know that I can go there? What happens if I wish that I want to go there? What 'something ' would bring me there? What would I do if it doesn't come? What if my wish would be in vain and doesn't actually come true? And what would happen if my mirror doesn't glow? What can I do to achieve that mission?

I stared into the unknown while thinking about everything, about my experience. This peculiar experience. I never imagined this happene, the silence enveloped me like a heavy fog. My thoughts were a jumbled mess, swirling around my mind like leaves caught in a gust of wind. I glanced around, noticing the empty desks and the fading light streaming through the windows. Everyone had left, and it was just me, alone with my thoughts. My heart sank at the realization that I had become an island, separated from the world I once belonged to.

Then, I felt a presence nearby, pulling me back to reality. Claudia and Candice suddenly appeared in front of me, their faces painted with concern. "Hey, Constance, are you okay?" Claudia asked, her brow furrowed.