The bet

6: abuse?

after last night, that talk with rosé... it kind of made me realize that maybe she isn't really who i thought she was, maybe i made this picture of her in my head that i couldn't let go off because i felt really offended by how she talked about people being gay.

i let out a sigh and sit up on my bed, my room is a messy hell wich i still have to clean , honestly though i'm not really in the mood to clean my room but i  do have to do it after all i've been needing to do it for weeks now. 

i heard a soft knock on my door making me turn my head to look at who it was even though i knew who it was- or actually who they are, the door went open and i saw my two little sisters standing in the door opening with teary eyes ''sissy..'' aria uttered, i got up and got them inside of my room before closing the door. 

as i turned around i was shocked and felt a rush of anger go through my body, Ava is bleeding from her head ''what happened?'' i asked rushing to her side, i could simply guess what had happened but i needed to hear it from her mouth before i would go to beat up the wrong person. 

''m- mommy threw a bottle at her head'' aria said tearing up, my heart shattered into a million peace but at the same time i felt everything get heavier, it's been going on for way to long and it has to stop but really i can't do anything about it because i'm still legally under her custody and i'm almost 18 too so they could probably put me in jail. 

''let me take a look'' i gently put her hair behind her ear being as careful as i possibly could, my little sisters are my only will to live at this point... i would never leave them alone in this cruel house hold. 

i stood up and grabbed my emergency kit, i always have one stored just to make sure.. i sat back down and gently dapped the blood from her face before it would get into her eye or stain her face ''hey... how about we go to the amusement park later'' aria nodded her head her eyes lighting up  a little 

they're too young to understand.. they're just 4 well almost 5 but still they're so young. 

i cleaned ava's wound and made sure it was disinfected, i put a band aid over her wound so no dirt would get in or she would touch it because ava loves touching wounds for some reason. ''there you go baby'' i gently pat her head ''should we get dinner at your favorite restaurant?'' i asked and both their eyes lit up a little more

''yes!" they said in unison, i smiled through the pain and looked at my room, my room can wait they're so much more important. 

''okay let's go'' i got up and grabbed my phone and wallet from my bed side and walked them through the back of the house after having them put on their shoe's and jacket since it's starting to get colder but then i remembered i forgot to grab the right wallet ''you two wait here okay?'' they nodded their heads and went to play in the backyard while i went back inside but i got confrontated by my mother

''sneaking out huh!?'' she yelled at my face some of her spit landing on my face, i clenched my jaw 

''so what it's not like you actually give a shit!'' i spat out at my mother

''so first you dare come home late, disturbing my fun-'' 

''your fun!?'' i said raising my voice ''you mean cheating on dad while he's been fighting for our country fighting for you, for us all!!" she rolled her eyes at me and said some things i couldn't make out of what they were 

''your dad is an asshole, i bet he has side chicks too'' i scoffed and looked at mom in disbelief 

''he checks in on us every fucking day and every time he gets the change to!" before i knew it she gave me a shove back into one of the cabinets, i hit my wrist and felt a pang of pain shoot through my shoulder and wrist 

''now go back to your room'' i clenched my jaw tighter

''no i'm going out'' she wanted to do something more but i walked out before she could, i found ava and aria playing in the backyard so i took them to their favorite restaurant. 

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my shoulder hurts like hell and so does my wrist and since when did my friends become friends with rosé and her friends, i just found out because they're at the same restaurant so i'm trying to hide a bit but maybe if i stared less they won't notice

''unnie you look really pale'' i forced a smile onto my face 

''oh that's just because i'm really hungry'' i reasoned which they luckily bought ''order whatever you two want okay?'' they happily nod and start pointing out somethings, i just look at them and smile through the pain knowing i don't want to worry them or show them such things at this age even though they've already been through to much. 

''unnie can we go into all the roller coasters?'' i nod my head

''of course'' i feel incredibly exhausted, i stayed awake almost all night arguing with my mom because i stayed out to late. i ordered the food and when it arrived both of them digged into the food quiet fast while i just played with it, i couldn't eat knowing my mother my own blood hurted my sister

i got shaken out of my thoughts when i suddenly heard a familiar voice ''J?'' i looked up and saw lisa with, jennie, rosé, irene, seulgi, nayeon, and  jeongyeon 

''oh hi Lis-'' 

''LISA!!'' aria and ava yelled at the same time, i slightly smiled and looked at hem before looking back at lisa 

''hi girls'' lisa said giving them a small wave ''anyways what are you doing here i thought you were gonna clean your room'' lisa said with a chuckle making me roll my eyes 

''yeah i was but uhm- i just thought it would be more fun to go out'' i said and lisa raised an eyebrow, giving me a knowing look.. lisa is the only person who knows about this all 

''do you need company?" i shrugged my shoulders which was a bad idea because i felt  pain go all through out my shoulder, i had a shoulder injury from a fight back in the day with my mom and they couldn't exactly fix my shoulder. ''scoot over girls'' aria and ava gladly scoot over as lisa sat besides them and the others sat down as well and of course rosé had to sit besides me

after a while rosé spoke up ''aren't you gonna eat that?'' 

''why?" 

''because it's tiring of watching you play with food which now by the way looks disgusting'' i scoffed 

''that really sounds like a you problem'' 

i don't know why but for some reason it made my heart raise to have her next to me or to even just argue with her and the scary part is that it's not in a bad way. 

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i'm sorry if the chapters are bad or boring i'll try harder