The bet

22: talent show!

i wrapped a bandage around my arm and rolled down my sleeves soon after, i have already skipped four classes and it's close to lunch now but i'm going to school though, i need to escape this hell hole. 

even though nothing is really an escape, i go to school to escape home and go home to escape school. 

soon i was infront of the school building, i heard some students talking about a talent show today after school.. i might go look but i'm not sure.

i just wanna escape this stupid world.. rest. 

i've done enough harm to this world already. 

i felt like crying... i haven't cried since- i have 't cried since mom told me i looked stupid... i was 5. 

nobody has ever seen me cry. 

my emotions are to high, i have to get myself under control. 

i walked into the school and i immediatly bumped into a teacher ''ah jisoo just who i was looking for'' i raised an eyebrow

''i didn't do anything'' she laughed and shook her head

''no it was about the talent show, i'm happy your joining this year'' she walked away leaving me confused, i never signed up for this- lisa. 

she knows how much i hate to make music, well i don't but now i do because of mom and well luuk. 

luuk was my brother but he died... i never told anyone the truth about what happened to him, it was all my fault. we we're in the middle of a fight and i pushed him, he stumbled and fell- he hit his  head on a rock and died. i had killed him it was all my fault, i murdered my own brother my own blood, he learned me how to play guitar he learned me how to use my vocals, he learned me everything. 

i stormed into the cafetaria but when i didn't see her there i know where she was, i stormed towards the music room and once infront i didn't hesitate i opened the door so fast the person behind it got hit in the face, not that i cared at the moment i immediatly spotted lisa and stormed towards her pushing her hard ''what the fuck is wrong with you!'' lisa scoffed. i pushed her back further, the chair she was sitting on was on two legs and threatening to fall or break any second. 

''yo stop!'' i heard seulgi say in the back but i blocked out her voice as my focus was only on lisa now 

''this is low even for you'' i said through gritted teeth

''oh so we're gonna talk about being low now?'' she laughed and i felt my breathing getting heavier ''you've been lying to everyone for weeks for money, and what i did is low!?'' 

''i thought you we're smarter then this'' lisa scowled and tried to move my grip on her shirt but i didn't move an inch ''really, really great of you lisa'' 

''so what? are you gonna tell on me? to who mommy or daddy?'' i didn't hesitate to punch her, i pushed the chair down, lisa groaned in pain as her body hit the floor 

''fuck you!'' i stormed out of the room and not even a second later jennie catched up with me. 

jisoo wait!'' i kept walking but jennie stopped me ''jisoo!'' she looked at me a frown plastered on her face ''i don't know what's going on with you, but you have to stop this i don't even recognize you, you weren't like this'' i was about to say something but jennie cut me off ''for god sakes jisoo, i saw the way you looked at rosé every time you two we're together you can't fake such a look of love in your eyes'' 

''i guess i'm just a great actress'' i said crossing my arms 

''no stop with the bullshit!'' i clenched my jaw ''i know somethings up but fine don't tell me, i'll just find out myself'' 

with that jennie left, my heart was racing, not because i was angry but because i was scared she was telling the truth