The bet

17: dating!?

i was hanging out with lisa at her house since we needed to finish some homework, she was working on biology while i was working on our spanish homework, not that i'm making it for her but she'll write my answers down and i'll write her answers down. great teamwork right?

suddenly lisa's phone made a sound and she picked it up looking at it which i didn't pay much attention to, i just simply continued doing my homework, i was just gonna check some answers when lisa gasped loudly, i looked at her with a raised eyebrow ''what?'' 

she looked at me more shocked then i've ever seen her, she looks back at her phone and then at me ''you! you kissed rosé!'' i felt my face heat up ''no, no worse you two are dating!'' she shows me her phone, it was a picture where rosé and i we're making out and her hand was under my fucking dress. please god save me 

''uhm i think that's edited rosé's straight'' i reasoned 

''jennie took the picture i don't see why she would make this up'' 

''when i get that little snob-'' 

''so it's true!?'' i looked away but nodded my head ''what about the bet aren't you supposed to break it off?'' i nod my head ''then why haven't you?'' 

''because lisa i can't'' i am hopeless. 

''why?'' 

''because i love her!'' lisa shut her mouth and looked at me even more shocked ''i- i mean she's okay-'' 

''no, don't lie to me now'' she crossed her arms ''you'll have to tell her the truth'' i shook my head

''i can't do that, she'll be so hurt and she will probably never talk to me again'' lisa sighed and nodded her head

''do you really love her?" i nod my head

''i even let her top me last night'' lisa's eyes widened 

''jeez girl your down bad'' 

''i know'' i groan dramatically as i hide my face in my hands ''i don't know what to do anymore lisa. Kai is threatening me to keep going for 2 weeks when i said i wanted to stop, i have to break her heart or he'll tell her the truth and he will make it worse by adding stupid lies i wish i never made this stupid bet'' lisa was speechless

''that fucker threatened you!?'' i nod my head ''i swear to god when i get that man-'' 

''no lisa you can't he will leak a video or picture of my mom slapping me'' 

''that dude is sick in his head!'' lisa said raising her voice ''why don't you report him to the principle'' 

''because i'll be expelled too!'' 

''what? why?'' 

''my grades are to low and making a bet like that can really get me expelled'' i sigh and shake my head ''i really don't know what to do'' 

''we'll find a solution jisoo'' she puts her hand on my shoulder ''i promise'' i shook my head

''there's no time to think lisa! rosé asked me to perform with her and that stupid club and that is in  exactly two weeks, she said you can't back out once your signed in'' lisa nods her head

''still i'm sure we will find a solution'' i got up and ran a hand through my hair

''you don't get it do you!?'' lisa was about to say something but i cut her off ''there's no time! i fucked up, i always do and there's no solution she's gonna end up hurting anyways!'' i grabbed my bag and walked out leaving my books with her. 

i hope i can fix this.. even though i bet that this won't be fixed. 

i made a stupid decision and i can't undo that decision, i'd rather chocke on my stupid decisions then hurt rosé.