The bet

20: On my own

it's been two weeks, since we had a whole vacation, i did absolutely nothing, i barely slept and i haven't left my room except to get food or use the bathroom. i feel so empty inside, so empty that i don't even know what to feel, i send a text to my teachers that i would be late for class due to traffic but in reality i just don't wanna go to school. 

right now i'm just sitting on my bed thinking about what i should do, lisa thinks i'm worse then that i used to be so i might just go for the old jisoo, no remorse no feelings just rude, fucked up. 

i applied some make up and put on my clothes and put on a new perfume. That should do it, i put on my white sneakers and walk out of my bedroom, i take a waterbottle from the fridge and grab the cigarettes i've been hiding for some time now, i stopped but i guess i can use it now. 

i looked at my water and put it back in the fridge, i'll just grab redbull on the way. 

i light a cigarette once i'm outside, i took just my phone and a lighter and cigarettes. 

i threw away the redbull i had grabbed on my way to school just missing the trash can, not that i care ''hey you!'' i turn my head giving the gardener an irritated look ''put that in the trash'' i give him a sarcastic smile and give him a middel finger before walking inside the school, i walked up the stairs, took a right and opened the door without knocking. i walked inside and got held back by the teacher 

''please knock next time kim'' 

''nah i'm good'' i took a step or two before she spoke up again 

''that wasn't a request'' 

''did sound like one'' i sat down in the back and took a pen from the guy sitting next to me, he looked down and handed me a paper too, i scoffed and took it, luckily i don't have this class with any of them. 

i barely payed any attention to the class, i mostly just drew on the paper infront of me and once the class ended i took the pen and got up since it was already lunch time, the guy stopped me outside the room 

''c-can i have my pen back.. p- please'' he stuttered, i laughed and shook my head

''s-sure'' i stuttered mocking him, some students around us laughed and i threw the pen in his found ''g-g-get lost'' he looked down and ran away, i was on my way to the cafetaria when i bumped into a girl, she dropped her phone and cursed under her breath

''i'm so sorry'' i raised an eyebrow ''i'm nayeon- i'm new'' i nod my head 

''ok'' 

''dry much'' she said and took her phone from the floor ''hey i'm gonna have lunch with some girls i met earlier wanna join?'' 

''nah i'm good'' it was then that jennie walked out of the cafetaria, she spotted us and stormed towards us 

''nayeon!'' she pulled nayeon back ''you better not be pulling some sick things on her or i'll make sure you'll regret it'' 

''take a chill pill woman'' i said rolling my eyes 

''c'mon nayeon'' 

''ah wait- hey i'm sorry i bumped into you'' i gave nayeon a cold look and crossed my arms 

''tsk. pay attention next time'' i bumped into jennie on purpose as i walked away not wanting to sit in the cafetaria, i stood behind the school building and took a cigarette and lit it with my lighter. 

i took a drag of it and blew out some smoke when someone approached me, jezus what is it with people today. 

''sup'' the girl said ''i'm aria'' i look at her weirdly taking another drag 

''good for you'' 

''just saw you standing here and thought you might want someone to talk with'' i blew out some smoke 

''no'' 

''to bad'' i took another drag when she grabbed my cigarette and took a drag herself, i took it back ''i don't do sharing.'' i stated 

''such a party pooper'' i rolled my eyes and threw it on the floor stomping on it with my foot ''what's your name?'' 

''okay.'' i crossed my arms ''i'm gonna make this really clear, i'm not in the mood to talk with a bitch like you so get lost'' she looked surprised by my snarky comment 

''your such a bitch'' she walked away and gave me the middle finger, i rolled my eyes and walked towards the entrance of the school where i of course had to bump into jimin 

''jisoo!'' he smiled but i kept walking not in the mood to talk with him ''jisoo wait!'' i walked into the cafetaria and jimin followed me ''jisoo i just want to apolagize to you-'' 

''get lost'' i said feeling irritated already

''jisoo-'' i turned around and punched him in the face 

''i said get lost!'' it went completely silent making me roll my eyes, such weirdos. 

i walked past jimin out of the cafetaria, what the fuck has my life become