When the stars align

Concern and choices

The room was filled with dimly lights, A dull contrast to the storm inside me. I lay on my bed, my min wandering around Taehyung, his live. Every word e had spoken seemed like they were meant for me. The way he ay talking about fighting for yourself, for your dream. And not to let anyone else make decision for you. It felt personal like he was speaking to my heart.

But I had already said yes and now there's no turning back.

My phone buzzing with more and more congratulations message. My cousin, relatives and friends seemed so excited, so happy. I should have felt the same, right? It's all happening for me, for my good. I had made a logical choice. The one that would make my family proud.

Then why did it feel like I was sinking deeper into a hole which I couldn't climb off.

I need someone who can hear me what I want to say not what other's want to hear. I grabbed my phone and opened my chat with Taehyung. Even the thought of it made my chest tighten with guilt. "Tae it feels so..."no not this time.

"Tae, the guy accepted the proposal, so do I. isn't it great. Everyone is happy. I'm happy. I am sure I will be ok with him.my parent's choice never was bad. I just want you to know am looking forward. Its what best for everyone."

Before I could second though myself. I pressed send. The message went though and I immediately felt a wave of regret wash over me. My heart pounded in my chest. Even if he never read it the weight of truth, I hadn't said suffocating me.

The truth was..... I'm not happy.

I was devastated.

But that didn't matter now. I had made my choice and there's no turning back.
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The room door burst open, a Rush of energy filled the house breaking all the Stillness that had settled over San, since the meeting. Pihu is home. her expression filled with disappointment anger and regret of going on trip.

'' Pihu.... you are home'' her mother chim softly as after days later she saw her younger daughter.

But she didn't felt like replying or hug like she used to do. she need to talk, talk to San.

'' San.. '' pihu's voice filled the room, made San flinch by the sudden call.

As she saw pihu, a hope came in her heart. smile made it's way on her lips. After days later, she is home. but hearing the words pihu said made her smile hung down again.

'' What the hell is going on, no one, literally no one, not even you share me about meeting. and you alone to the decision. '' pihu's tone was filled with anger that San was able to feel the heat of her words.

She didn't share it with her and now it's time for consequences.

'' pihu. '' san tried to clear her point but pihu was so angry to listen to her.

Don't! was I dead or something you let them decide and the f*** arrange the meeting, why you accepted. Are you crazy '' San felt her heart drops in her stomach. she just didn't want to talk about this topic anymore.

I know it sounds crazy but... '' san tries to explain herself, but pihu cutted her and said '' crazy, you are insane! '' she rolled her eyes.

'' what's with your studies, your dream. this is not what was meant to happen. you are future gonna revolve around them. what now, nothing . they're going to expect you a grandchild just after marriage. and yes, san is over. Is it what you wanted '' pihu said sarcastically tried to make san understand that this marriage isn't the best decision but worse.

just even thinking about San suffering tears-rolled down her cheeks. she was not angry at San but herself, she was angry at herself for not being by her side when she need her. she broke as all she did was cry now.

'' I didn't have a choice, you weren't here. you don't know how things happened. how trapped I felt under the Expectations. I just can't turn them down '' San said as thick tears prick at the corner of her eye.

Pihu stepped closer, her voice softened, but fill with urgency '' you think it's best to let them decide, you are just 24. what about Tae. I wanted you to be with someone who understands you. not who match their perfect son in laws image. ''

San turned away, staring at the corner of her bed. pihu's word echoes in her mind reminding her what she really wanted is totally opposite from what is really happening. the girl who dreamed big, who wanted to Carve her own part. wanted to start her own business, travelling around the world.

San bited her lips and said '' it's not that simple Pihu, I feel guilty like I owe them something. they mean well, y-you know. ''

'' What you expect me to do then, when you already have given up. don't let this moment define your entire future for god sake it's time to build future not someone's heir. You deserve to choose your own path. '' pihu said. exclaimed, throwing her hands up in frustration.

'' I Already Said 'Yes'. I just can't help now. everything is over I don't know if I can stand up to them, it's scary. San said.

'' You are not alone in this, I am here now, at least try. you need to stand for yourself'' pihu said softly, tried to encourage her to stand for herself.

But all San did was, shaked her head. No, she can't now. her family's broken Expectations and fight. that's the least She wanted.

Silence fell between them. The tension was palpable. San felt the weight of pihu's word press down on her. but thinking of her parents, Their honor. No, she just can't let anyone talk bad about them. If she can't be the reason of pride, she have no right to let other question them become of her.
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Author : I don't know if you gonna like it or not, cause writing this part, ugh! I just didn't want to write melodrama. but here I did. Hehe.

Aish! I just hope you like it. and If not I do think I need guidance. 😅.
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