When the stars align

Bound by expectations

'' We have arranged another meeting for you. '' the words that rolled out her uncle's mouth, echoes in her mind.

There was a silence, the air in the room was thick with tension, the kind that weighted heavily on san's chest as she sat there, her fingers nervously twisted on her laps. her uncle, who had been a silent observer during much of her childhood, had suddenly became the key figure in a decision that San had been dreading. she hated him from childhood to now but now even his presence was getting on her nerves.

The room was filled with quiet murmur of her parents voice as they tried to calm her apprehension , reminded her again "It's just a meeting " but is it for real?

"you don't have to say yes right away San" my mother said softly. Her eyes filled with insistent and expectations "This is only a step . if you don't like him ,we won't push you. just meet him ."

Her father sat beside her ,his strong presence ,not intimidation but expectations .he is a great man .who can do any thing for his family .not only her father but the family .they all love her so much. But never did they tried to understand her heart, her insecurities ,the weight of their hopes crushed her beneath their well meaning but relentless pressure.

Her uncle's voice suddenly broke the silence "I wouldn't have bought him up if I didn't think he was a good man . he is respectful ,comes from respectful and wealthy family ,he know how to respect others and is serious about settling down. He will do everything to make you happy ."

The word 'happy' seemed to echo in her mind ,her heart rate quickening ,as the walls were feeling like they were closing crushing her in between them. Husband, marriage and the sudden pressure of having a baby. When you don't even know each other. how she was suppose to let someone touch her, who she have never ever talked properly. None of this was what she wanted-at least not for now ,under the crushing expectations of her family to build around her family.

'' But uncle... I don't want want it right now. I need time, I don't feel ready. '' her voice trembled as she sluttered in between. tried to made them understand, her eyes pleading, but the look on their faces - just broke her heart. the disappointment, her father's silence was something much deeper. they weren't pushing her in hell. they wanted the best for her. but the fear if she met this man, things could change.

'' Yn''her father called out her name softly.'' we aren't forcing you. Just... Just meet him, see how you feel. the meeting won't hurt. what if he change your prospective and you like him. ''

'what if I say it is never going to happen, what if I say in him I will try to only find Taehyung. what if I..'' tears build in my eyes. as I bites my lips to control my tears

Emotion welled up in Yn's chest. the guilt, the scense of duty, the urge to be the best daughter. all warred against the growing dread of this meeting would mean.

'what if it's the starting of something, I couldn't stop.'

After hours of back and forth conversation, tears at the edge of San's eyes and the mounting pressure from her family. '' Fine''she muttered quietly.''I will meet him. '' the look of relief on their face broke her heart. they aren't celebrating, they truly want her happiness. but they didn't understand the weight of her uncertainty.

Taehyung's pov

I putted my phone aside, leaning back on the couch, my hand moving in my hairs. 'why it feels uneasy?' it's been days yn even messaged, the last she did was she's doing great. she is focusing on her Career. but, why she stopped. Maybe she is busy on her goals but she used to do it before too then what's wrong now. ' Tae stop it, stop it. you have no claim on her. if she wants to do it, she will if she didn't but why not'

Deep down something inside him screamed it isn't that simple as it is feeling like. he couldn't explain, but the feeling for her was are now more than a fan. he had never seen her, never spoken to her but he knew her the way that surprised him. he memorized the way she thought, the way her words reveales her emotions.

'' Hyung, you are spacing out again. ''
jungkook said his voice pulled me out of my thoughts. The younger sat next to me. '' thinking about her again. ''

Taehyung didn't need jungkook to clarify who that 'her' refered to. The members had all peiced it together by now They have seen the way Taehyung's mood changes after reading whatever she messaged. he would disappear into his thoughts afterward lost in whatever he was feeling.

'' I don't know what to do. '' I admitted quickly, but surprised with my own voice. '' she's not messaging me from days and I don't know why it's bothering me too much. ''

Jungkook looked at me, his expression thoughtful but serious "Hyung you like her, don't you?"

Taehyung didn't answer not like he don't want but he don't know, his feelings are tangled, too messy to put into words. He couldn't deny that now she is more than a fan but calling this feeling love is too early . He thinks he have gotten emotionally attached to her.

I don't know if I can call it that" he finally said. His voice low, "I have never meet her, she don't know me ...not really. I don't know her beyond self but it feels real, somehow..."

A voice came make both of us shiver but calm instantly, Suga hyung. He Said "Feeling doesn't always make sense little boy. you don't have to meet to connected with them, but if you like her then confirm yourself first before taking any action."

I bitted my lips and nodded my head.