Just a wrong number story(,right?)

Chapter Twenty-five

A/n: I'm back!! I'm so sorry that I haven't updated in over a month. The last two weeks (before this one) were really stressful with school and even before I never found the motivation to write. I'll do it now, though, because I have/had a week holidays where I actually managed to write a little bit. It's not really good, but at least it's something. :D

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two weeks later

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Yelena's POV:

Y/n's worrying me. Two weeks ago when we  introduced her to Wanda, she already seemed really off. Then it was kind of understandable.
But a week ago, she moved into the tower with us (I did too) and hasn't left her room since.
The first two days she came out to eat and only for short periods of times, but after that she never left it again.
Her room's always locked and I always place food in front of her door and slip a note underneath it.
When I bring new food the old one's are gone, so I really hope that she actually eats it. I don't want her starving herself. Who knows what else she's doing.

Now I've had enough. I understand that she doesn't feel good about what she did her past and that's why I did give her some time to process it all, but it cannot keep going on like this.

She couldn't even properly introduce herself to the other Avengers. Nat had to hold a short speech and stare daggers and anyone questioning it.

I'm scared she might go as low as I have when I broke free from the spell. As low as we probably all have been - for whichever reason - we all have.

She needs to accept her past to move on. She needs to understand that it cannot be changed. The question is just, how is she going to understand that? And how can she possibly accept her past without any help?

Just like we all have been low, we all weren't able to get out of that low state ourselves. We all needed help. Even though some might not admit that. Everyone needs help from time to time. I'm afraid that because she's always just relied on herself and did pretty much everything on her own, it'll be even harder for her to change that perspective.

How can I show her that it's okay to need help from time to time? Not everything can be done by one person alone. Neither does perfection exist. Everyone makes mistakes, as subconscious as they might be done, some with minor consequences, others with drastic one's. In the end, there's always something one wishes to have done differently or to maybe not have done at all. But just like Rafiki from The Lion King once said: "Oh yes, the past can hurt. But from the way I see it, you can either run from it, or learn from it."

I am aware of the fact that it wasn't her that acted that way, she was under influence, so there's technically even less to learn from. Instead, there is something to embrace. No one from the team is proud of what they did in the past, but they embraced it, learned from it and now look at them. One's past doesn't define one. It might have an impact on your future, but it most definitively isn't what you are. People change, surroundings change, time changes, everything changes.

Now, I might know something that's keeping her low, but I don't know the whole story, I don't know her way of thinking and confronting such kind of things. Although I do know how strong she is and what a wonderful person she is who's already gone through so much at such a young age. She didn't deserve all that, neither did anyone suffering from any kind of trauma and/or depression.

I feel like I'm being pulled into darkness with only a spot of white light far in the distance. Her low mental state is affecting my currently worsening one. I've been low before and I managed to get out of it, but without Nat's help I wouldn't have been able to achieve happiness ever again. Maybe Nat knows how to tell Y/n the truth, how to actually help her out. Just knowing that she needs help brings nothing when I have no idea what to do to help her.

We, of course aren't super close, we've only known each other for what, a month? Why would she seek help from me? God, I really wish she would. Who knows, maybe she does, but when she doesn't show it, I cannot know.

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A/n: I had to make this chapter shorter as I still don't really feel like writing, but I did it anyways. Because of that, this chapter only shows Yelena's thoughts and Y/n's mental state.

Lmk what you think of this way of writing.

Btw happy Halloween to anyone who celebrates it (I didn't haha).

You cannot believe how much I'm looking forward to Christmas or let's say the end of November as I'm having a one-week exchange to France then, and guess what, we'll also go to the christmas market in that city which is known to be quite big and all.

I really hope I'll manage to really get back into writing again. Until then, I hope you have a great time. Feel free to comment. You can also request something for this book or for a one-shot if you have smth in mind. I'm planning to create a one-shot book, I'm just missing the plots xD.

How have you guys been? :)