Piece

Reckoning

The day sets it's new dawn, I did not see the boy anymore in my dreams.. Instead all I saw was dead birds .. on the ground. I tried to go help them, but as I touched one of them they were already dead.

Fastforward someone grabs my hand from the sky behind me, and I don't see his face I hear someone yelling my name, "Wait!"

I wake up..

A bit sweaty than usual, I must take a shower.. 2 days ago, I went to kill more people bc I could not control myself, knowing evil people walked amongst me. And I was so right. Those trash bags, now dead. Filthy cheater and another bastard. We are all better off without these motherfuckers, but now yesterday.. I killed so much more. So many .. too. I went on completely insane, frenzy I was not on my right mind. Was I? But those people .. they were such evil pieces of shit. Doing drugs, is always wrong. Unless you got your reasons, however abusing another random guy is not. And cheaters .. animal abuser, fuck them both. Then .. these filthy bastards who deliberately, want to ruin their and other peoples lives, fuck them all. I wish I could do it all over again. Then these bastards who walk around thinking they own the nature? Nature owns you not the other way around, you just take from it bc you think you are entitled to? No bc you need to. Big difference between enjoying to hurt others and harm things, than needing to survive, fuck off. And then the rest of them .. that bastard bully there, who even was he? What a awful hoe. Now he is dead, then that fucking kid .. violating those things .. fuck you bitch.

I reach my shower, putting my clothes on washing machine they have little dried blood. In them, hopefully I don't need to buy new clothes now. Fuck .. but bc I wear black that might be last option.

I step inside the shower, and drop my clothes to the washer. And open the shower.. I let the water run down my hair and my head. It runs deep and softly, I can feel it touching my chest and my muscles, my soft body. My shaped strong legs. Yes I do workout in the gym past 5 years, inside my home 3 times a 4 weeks, I also run 3 times a month. And keep my diet healthy, it is hard to make time for workouts. But when you got time, do not let it go to waste. It is all worth it. I don't have to shave my beard but only few times a month. Bc my hair does not grow there, idk why. I guess my mom has beautiful hair like mine, and my dad thick hair .. and so on..

Not sure why I think this right now? Is it bc I'm thinking my past lives .. a home that never was my home. Friends that never were my friends. Or a life that never felt like worth living for? Right now though that has changed, I want to kill myself.

But not until I have gotten my revenge.

I turn the shower-head off. And yank the shower cloth to wrap around my head, and towel .. around my body.

It is gray in color, does it matter? Black towel too. No. I look at myself in a mirror, with no emotion at all. All wet, I walk outside.

I have always felt self-conscius about my appearance to public. Whetever to smile or laugh, not do both? Or cry when you need to be sad. I have not been able to match my emotions but when my mother left me I did cry tears once. And when my dad had been left behind, I was furious.

My parents didn't know how to be a family. Mother said it was that we are tragedies of circumstances, I don't believe her. This world is just trash.

I have not been in contact with her or any other family members, I have left my grandparents and other siblings.

There is no such thing as a family when your world has fallen apart.

Such a nice steal, like taking a life.

I put on clothes, same as usual. But switch them to a new. Check my laundry, after few hours. I check the TV for news .. yeah. It's all normal.

I read online there is a newsflash of insane killing spree, multiple people are dead. They found all the bodies, even the kid it seems.

(The guy or anyone who would have done this .. is bat shit insane.) I laugh without making a sound, saying, Oh .. you have no idea.

The amount of witnesses were 0. Even the kid that was bullied had not said anything yet, or the girl. And that other guy, same exact thing. Do they know they were evil? What about the other man who said to stop being harmful towards the trees? Has he not said anything? Maybe he has to it is his job. Well we shall see, right?

I notice the other kid has been found dead too, now near park. At the street he has been violently stabbed to death.

I look at it smirking, Now they found him. It didn't take long haha

I put down my phone closing it.

I walk then outside to get my meal, opening the door. I wear my hoodie, dark colored gray. And walk to the usual spot. As usual all greet me with a smile until one girl says, "Did you hear the news?" "It's so awful .. all those people killed." "Horrifically murdered.." I look at her immediately and answer to her, "Yeah it looks like they had it coming." She looks at me less shocked, and says, "Yeah.. I guess you are right." The boy who is the helper there says, "Whoever killed them is insane, I mean how can someone do that and be this violent?"

I look at him and say.. "Well I guess we all have our reasons?" He smiles at me soon after and says, "Oh come on man" .. you think he killed them bc they were bad people?" "How could he know that?" I say to him.. "Just by looking at you, I can say you are naive." The boy says, "Sorry .. yes I'm it's just so many have been killed .. it's insane." I apologize, it's none of my business."

I smile at him and say.. "It's a good thing you care." "Hah, I gotta go thanks guys."

They both smile at me and say, "Thank you!" "Pleas come back soon, and do be careful!"

I turn at them saying.. "Yeah likewise." And leave the spot. I can tell they are just civilians, they don't understand anything at all about evil people and good people, naive and stupid. Too kind, too nice. Working messes .. in a hord of empty masses. That boy cares too much, he should look after himself. Or someone might get him.

I walk to my apartment with the meal in my hands, I don't plan to kill today. At least not yet. Lay-low unless something takes over me again. I walk to my apartment .. but then as I do, I see a homeless person. Weird .. usually no one stands or stays around here. I look at him, and reach him. Taking a half of my order and give him a half of my sandwich, I bought two just incase I need it, even though I'm gonna cook food today myself. I reach him saying, .. "Here man." "Hey get out of here, get some help." "This looks bad for you." "Go on, don't stay in these filthy streets."

He looks at me radiating with light on his face, happily says, "Oh, thank you so much kind sir!" "How can I ever repay this to you?"

I tell him again, "Just get off these streets, man." And I walk off away from him.

He yells after me, "Thank you sir!" "I will do that!" "I was just!" "Passing by.."

I don't look at him but instead walk to my apartment inside, that half sandwich was big one. He will be full till next evening, heh. If he is still there I'm gonna kill him.

I don't usually help people, but I don't want to leave people hanging off the rope that's gonna get cut at any moment now, I rather help them up and offer them my help, and let them choose their own ends. Instead.

I go to my kitchen, sit down the table and cook my usual meal, have some fish. With potatoes, fuck it. Could be worse. Salad leaves, with few olives. Keeps me full for long time.

I'm done and full, drinking a bit water afterwards, and eat a fruit an apple. Put the double meal to my fridge, I don't need to go get my meal tomorrow. I got it here now.

I go check my laundry it has finished, the clothes are fully clean.