Medical malpractice case

Chapter 17 Noah

"I have fallen for you since that day in court." I continue talking, still holding her waist. I reach and tuck a strand of her hair behind her ear.

"Me too." She whispers. I smile and can't hold back, lifting her and spinning her. Her laughter filling the room.

This feels good. Amazing, actually. But I can't help but have the memory of Jake in her house holding Harry. I hate that he's the father. I should be. No kid deserves a father like him. And no woman deserves a man like him.

I sigh and pull Jamie into an embrace, not wanting to ever let go of her. She's become a precious, valuable person in my life. I never wanna leave her side.

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Harry babbles in my arms while we're sitting on the couch waiting for the lunch Jamie is cooking. I put Harry down to play with the toys. I make sure to add extra cushions on either side of him.

I stand up and head to the kitchen. The smell of pasta filling the room. I go up up to her and wrap my hands around her waist.

"Well, hello there, judge." I mutter, burying my head into her neck.

"Hello there, handsome." She replies, reaching for the salt. I stay clinged to her, not letting go once. I glance at Harry from the corner. He's giggling and babbling.

I kiss her shoulder over and over again. "I have a night shift today." I whisper, kissing her shoulder once again.

"Either way, I'll be seeing you tomorrow." I pause at her words and lift my head to look at her.

"Where are you going?" I ask jealousy coursing through my veins.

"Relax, I'm going to Andrew's for the night." She says softly.

"Andrew?" I say, letting out a sigh of relief. Still, she won't be spending the night with me. Like she should be.

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I couldn't deal with the night shift, and as soon as I stepped out of the hospital, I practically dashed to my car and dialed my girlfriends  number. Feels weird thinking that she's now my girlfriend. I quickly click her contact and ring the phone. She picks up on the fourth ring.

"Hello, beautiful." I say as soon as she answers.

"Hey." She says. "What's up?"

"Nothing. I just wanted to hear your voice." I say, feeling my face flush red. This woman and her affect on me. I swear. She'll be the death of me. "I'm not taking no for an answer. I want you to wear the prettiest dress you have tomorrow night. I'm taking you out."

"Noah, we don't need-" She says, but I quickly cut her off.

"No judge. I want to show you off to the world. To let the entire world you're mine." I say sighing. I can't help but feel a pang of guilt it hasn't been a year since.. Jenna and I already found someone else. I practically replaced her.

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I couldn't sleep well. My head filled with the thoughts that I had replaced Jenna. I swing the blankets off and head to the bathroom. I lean over, placing my hands on the counter to steady myself.

I look myself in the miror. I see a bastard. Nothing but a cruel bastard. I slam my fist on the counter. What have I done? I shouldn't have even kissed Jamie. I glance at my fist, looking at it on the verge of bleeding.

I remember when Jenna used to clean up after my mistakes. I look at the toothbrush holder where her toothbrush used to be.

After I calm down, I decide to pick up my phone and text Jamie.

Me: Hey, I don't think I'm going to be able to take you out tonight. I have a night shift again.

I text a white lie. I don't have a night shift I never do on Tuesdays. I take a deep breath when I see the typing block pop up.

Jamie: Oh, alright. Take care tonight.

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I distanced myself from Jamie since the supposed date night. I can't do this to Jenna. Truth to be told. I want to call Jamie and explain, but that will cause her hurt more, so I won't do that, but she has been spamming texts.

I'm sitting on the couch overthinking life  as one does. When suddenly my thoughts get interrupted by the doorbell ringing. I sigh getting up and walking over it to open it.

As soon as I open it, my eyes fall on the one person I've been avoiding. Jamie. She's here.

"Care to explain?" She immediately says, holding Harry in her arms. I stare at her opening my mouth to speak but nothing comes out.

"I just need some time." I finally say

"Come on, Noah, I've given you time. At least don't lie to me saying you have night shifts!" She snaps.

"Jamie you have to understand that I'm trying my hardest. My head is a mess, but I'm trying, I really am."

"Noah, if you won't say it, I will. Let's take a break." She blurts out.

"Jamie, it's not fair, and you know it." I snap back.

"Noah I-"

"Jamie, I don't wanna lose you. I've already lost my spark once, but you brought it back, and now you're taking it away from you. Jamie, I have lost everything in my life, but now you're my everything, and I don't wanna lose you." I say my voice pleading.

"Noah I can't do this once agai-" She says but I quickly cut her off bu pulling her by the waist and smashing my lips against hers.

After a deep, passionate kiss, I pull away resting my forehead against hers. "Jamie, one thing I know is... I do have flaws. A lot of them actually, and I do tend to push people away the second I feel overwhelmed, but I also know that I would never intentionally hurt you. I'm not Jake. I won't leave you. I don't plan to. Not now, not ever. Jamie, I would never leave you. Don't think if you got pregnant I would leave you. Never. I can promise you that."