JUNOON || جنون

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The smell of the hospital and standing in front of the operation theatre made Shahzaib realise the reality of the situation more than ever. Urwa was shot. She was bleeding so heavily. Her clothes were all drenched with blood. He could feel her blood staining his brown kurta.

That bullet was meant for him. She should not be the one who should suffer the consequences. He can't lose her. Heck.

"Main tumhe nahi kho sakta Urwa"
Shahzaib spoke as he caressed her cheeks.

Urwa's eyes were slightly open indicating that she has not lost her consciousness till now. A hope.

"Gaadi jaldi chalao yaar"
Shahzaib snapped at Azlan who was trying his best to reach the hospital as soon as possible.

It was past midnight. Their surrounding was filled with darkness. Shahzaib felt his heart beating anxiously. He can't lose her. He can't.

"Shahzaib"
Urwa spoke slowly, lifting her hand to caress Shahzaib's face. She was feeling an unbearable ache in her chest. She didn't know if she could survive or not but it seemed that the chances were low.

Before she dies she needs to speak to him. She wants to tell him that she loved him.

"Shushh"
Shahzaib spoke, his voice soft.

"Tumhe kuch nahi hoga suna tumne? Hume aur bohot kuch karna hai. Maine tumse maafi bhi maanga hai aur tumne mujhe maaf bhi karna hai. Samjhi?"
Shahzaib continued, as he tapped Urwa's cheeks. He can't afford to lose her. She shouldn't lose her consciousness.

A chuckle escaped Urwa's lips which turned into a groan of pain. Laughing while you are shot is not a good idea.

Shahzaib's expression morphed into pain and anger. For once in his lifetime he was unaware of his surroundings and this happened. Why?

"Pagal, itna bharosa hai ki main tumhe maaf karungi?"
Urwa questioned, her breaths laboured.

"Zindagi bhar tumse maafi mangta rahunga agar tum chaho toh, sirf mujhe chod ke mat jao please. Main nahi reh sakta tumhare bina"
Shahzaib spoke, his voice ending with a pleading note.

"Ek hafta reh liye ye zindagi bhi guzar hi sakte ho"
Urwa replied as she felt her eyes dropping.

Shahzaib shook his head. He knows how this week went away. He was not himself this week. He didn't eat, sleep or anything he normally did. He just tried to make himself busy in work so his thoughts would not drift back to Urwa but it didn't work.

In everything he remembered her. She was everywhere.

One week seemed like an eternity. How can he live without her?

He can't live without her. He just can't.

"Galti thi woh meri, par kasam se Urwa nahi jee sakta main tumhare bina. Zindagi ho tum meri"
Shahzaib spoke, looking at her as he noticed her closing eyes.

"Urwa Urwa aankhe band nahi kar sakti, tum meri taraf dekho"
Shahzaib demanded, which almost sounded like a plea.

A smile appeared on Urwa's face as she again touched Shahzaib's cheeks. Maybe this was the time. She felt she could not keep up with her consciousness anymore.

"Pagalo ki tarah mohabbat karti hu tumse Shahzaib"
Urwa confessed as she looked at Shahzaib with a hazy vision.

Shahzaib froze as he heard Urwa's words. No. No.