His Fantasy

Redlight (Part 2)

Once the movie was over , the guys decided to put karaoke on and we just jammed out together.  Me and Felice sung a song together,  then Wilhelm and Henry.. it was okay.  Then the boys decided to dress up gurli and sing gurli pop songs. We were laughing and drinking some. They wanted me to sing again

" Simon come on ...your voice is amazing ..lets hear one " the guys say

"Fine " i say as I think about the song I want to sing ..

I put on "Run To You" since i didn't perform it for the event. I sing it with my heart and I put glances toward Wille . He looks so mesmerized. Once I'm done , I bow.

They all clap and woot, I look at Wille and he looks like he's thinking. 

Wilhelm POV 

Simon can sing his heart out. hes so amazing and i know he will go far ,  maybe my mom is right.....

*Office Scene*

"Son..me and your father have noticed a change in you and we see what's going on " my mom says 

" What do you mean"? I say

 " we have noticed you are getting close to the Eriksson boy" she says

 " I mean mostly likely. He is the son of your bosses" I say

 "Son come on... I wasn't born yesterday but you know how our family is Wilhelm. " she says

 " what are you implying" I ask

 " our family won't approve son.. and we have lots of family in the entertainment industry .. you'll not have work and we don't want that.. anyways think about it. He will outshine you , singers have it easier in the business  " she says

 " mom seriously ?" I say

 " I'm serious son... someone like Stella is perfect. She is a  trophy wife and the family will like that better " she says

 " so now your homophobic" I say

 " son i don't care and your dad doesn't either but think about it... he will outshine you or you won't have work because our family won't work with you if your in that relationship. Stella is the answer" she says

 I sit there pissed... I get up and walk out of the room, I see Simon .. I roll my eyes..

I don't mean to be a asshole but sometimes when i feel i get to close to him , i distance myself and then I'm the asshole. Last night was so amazing and  felt so much for him but us talking about my sexuality bought up what my mom said and then i got scared. when i went to the bathroom, Stella was blowing up my phone...i felt so overwhelmed with emotions and needed a safe place which is where i go sometimes. all of a sudden everything felt numb and i can breathe.

"Ill be at that cabin tomorrow wilhelm..so that side bitch you have there better leave" she texts

Now i have to go deal with him, he will outshine me and i cant have that.

I walk out and need him to leave, once he leaves i can relax. 

i know he felt hurt and i just cant deal with that right now. i lay down in bed and put the covers on me, i tear escapes my eye

"goodnight" he says upset

"goodnight" i say as strong as i can .once he closes the door, the tears fall down my face. I'm such a asshole. i don't deserve him, i deserve to just be with Stella and be unhappy, it will make my family happier.

The next day sucked so much, Stella was on me. i know Simon is hurting. hes been outside this whole time. i see Felice look at me, she so pissed. i think she knows about me and him. i noticed they were gone all day and i missed seeing him. stella tries to get me in private but i don't go. she takes me to the room and tries to suck me off but i cant. i try to think about him but its not the same.