There's No Turning Back (Luke Brooks)

Chapter 11

"Hey baby, how are you feeling?", Luke asks.

Lately I haven't been feeling so great. I been feeling sick to my stomach all the time, and very dizzy. I have always had a problem with having low iron, so sometimes I get a little dizzy or feel a little weak. However I have a feeling it isn't the low iron this time.

"Not so great", I mumble.

"I wish I could come and see you".

"I know, but my mother doesn't want any visitors while I am sick... Especially from you".

I hear Luke chuckle through the phone. "Well feel better babe, I will call you later".

I take a deep breath as I climb out of my bed. I walk over to my calendar I have mounted on my wall. I sigh deeply counting the days. Six days.... It should have came six days ago. I flip the calendar back a month and recount the days. This can't be right. How am I late. I am never late. It must be all the stress from end of the year exams. It will come any day now.

"Hey darling", my mother joyfully cheers as she steps into my room.

"You father and I are going out for dinner do you want to come?".

"I am not feeling so well do you mind if I stay home?".

"What's wrong?", she questions her tone concerned.

"My stomach hurt that is all".

"Isn't it your time of the month?".

"It should be coming any day now".

"Well if you want on our way home from dinner I can stop by and grab some tampons for you", she says and I nod. She leaves my room and I run over to my calendar once more. I count fourteen days from my last period. My eyes scan over the date the 23rd, and I feel my heart stop in my chest. I ovulated the 21st which means I was fertile on the 23rd. The day Luke and I had sex.. Oh shit. I count the days over again to make sure I am not miss counting any days I take a deep breath. I am just being paranoid. My period is going to come any day now. I am too stressed and it caused it to be delayed.

I grab my phone and ring Luke. Now that my parents are home I can invite him over. Maybe he can help get my mind off of things. .

"Hey babe", he says.

"Come over? My parents just left and won't be home until later".

"I am on my way", he says before hanging up. I change out of my pj shorts and into a grey pair of tights. I keep on my white Tshirt and wait for Luke to arrive.

10 minutes later my door bell rings and it is Luke.

I wrap my arms around him tightly as he opens the door.

"Hi to you too", he smiles.

"I have missed you", I frown. The thought of my being late for my period is overpowering my mind. That is what I have been thinking about since my mom left.

He leans in and presses his lips against mine.

"It hasn't even been a week".

"I know".

I take Luke's hand and we go into my family room. I sit on the couch and Luke sits beside me. I wrap a blanket around the two of us and lean into his chest.

"How are you feeling", he questions.

"I am okay. I still feel a little light headed but it will past".

I switch on the tv and we flip through channels before deciding on Sponge Bob. As old as we both get we will never get to old for Sponge Bob. The silly episode gets me laughing and distracts me for a moment until I begin to think about my period. I am being to paranoid. I need to stop.

"Luke can I ask you something?", I softly speak.

"Mhmm what's up", he mumbles opening his eyes slightly. I never noticed how he must have fell asleep.

"Do you want children when you are older?", I say without even thinking.

Luke sits up slightly looking down at me with wide eyes. He clears his throat before speaking.

"Are you asking me if I want to have children with you or just in general?", he raises an eyebrow.

"Just in general. Like how do you see yourself in 10 years?".

"I am confused... I feel like there is a certain answer I should be giving you".

"No right or wrong answer I am just wondering... You are telling me you never though about the future?".

"Not really. I like to focus on today".

"What about us?".

"What about us...?" He asks coldly.

"In the future", I question. I feel the tears begin to fill up in my eyes.

"For fuck sales Kassy we are not even 18 years old yet. What does it matter. Why do we have to be focusing on something so far away?", he says and I am hurt by his words.

"I don't know I haven't really thought about us a lot. A lot can happen in 10 years. For all we know we could be broken up", he admits and my heart breaks at his words.

"So you are telling me you can't see us together in the future?", I say and the tears begin to fall from my face.

"Why are you crying", he asks.

"I don't get what is going on right now. Is there something you are trying to tell me? Why are you so worried about the future all of a sudden?".

I wipe my tears with my sleeve. "I don't know it was just a question".

"Then why do you seem so hurt by my answer?".

"I am just a little emotional today". I really hope I am so emotional because my period is about to come. I am being too paranoid. I am over thinking once agin.

"Do you need me to run to the store for you and get you some... You know?" An embarrassed look runs over his face as he rubs the back of his neck.

No. I won't need them for the long time of it is what I think it is.

"No it is fine", I giggle at his shyness.

"Well I should go babe. I will message you later", he smiles pressing his lips against mine.