There's No Turning Back (Luke Brooks)

Chapter 24

I sit outside of the room waiting patiently to see what the doctors have to say. I want to be in the room so badly but only immediate family is allowed in.

Beau is a wreck. He hasn't stop crying since we got here. As well as his mother and his other brother. They are so upset, and don't know how to respond. I just pray that Luke will make it out of this alive. It breaks my heart knowing that he would ever consider doing this to himself. How bad could it have possible been. I know Beau said he would crack but I didn't think he meant this. I can't believe Luke would want to hurt himself so badly. My bottom lip trembles at the thought of Luke bing gone forever. I run my fingers through my hair tugging at the roots. Please. Let Luke live. Please.

I don't know how to respond to this whole situation. I am in shock. I feel like this is all a dream. So many bad things have happened to me in such a short time. I didn't think it could get any worse until today.

Deep down I feel like it is my fault. The night when I hung out with Beau, I freaked out on Luke. Beau told me he was sick and I didn't listen. I told him things I wish I have never said. No matter what, I truly will always love Luke. How can you get over your first love? We have been through so much together, there is no way I am leaving now. I just hope he is okay. I don't want him to die. I can't imagine him gone forever. I will miss him to much. I can't deal with another loss.

I get startled by the sound of the door opening. I look up to see Beau. His nose is red, his eyes are puffy and bloodshot red. He looks like a disaster. He takes a seat beside me on the floor, and sighs deeply

"How is he doing?", I murmured.

Beau doesn't answer me. He looks down and places his hand over his face cupping it. I can hear him sob quietly into his shirt.

"He isn't doing good", he stutters.

"He hasn't woken up yet. I am not sure if he is going to".

I take Beau hand, squeezing it slightly.

Beau looks up at me.

"I can't believe he did this. It is all my fault. I didn't help him enough. I knew he was sick. I did my best but I could have done better. I could have done something. I tried so hard. I tried so hard but he wouldn't talk to me".

I shake my head.

"No Beau. It isn't your fault. It is all mine".

"He called me". I pause taking a deep breathe.

"He called me.. He called me and I didn't answer. I was in the shower and I didn't see that he called me. If only I answer I could have said something! I could have said something! I could have saved him! He would be here right now-". Beau interrupts me.

"It isn't you fault Kassy.. Don't blame it on yourself".

I hear the sound of the door opening and look up to see Gina. "Kassy. It is getting really late. You should really get home".

I shake my head, "No", I stutter.

"No I don't want to leave. I want to stay here. Please let me stay. I don't want to go home".

Gina sighs. "Beau are you going to stay out here with her? I wish you could come inside".

Beau nods his head, gripping my hand tighter.

I rest my head on Beau's shoulder, my eyes slowly close before drifting to sleep.

Luke's POV

(A/N: this is what Luke saw before he passed out in the bathroom)

I lye on the floor as my vision began to blur. I glanced over to my phone which was continually ringing. My vision was blurred and I couldn't make out the name. I felt my eyes begin to feel heavy and slowly close. It was getting harder to breathe. My heart was racing because of all the medication however I felt frozen. Frozen in time.