There's No Turning Back (Luke Brooks)

Chapter 20

It has been almost 3 weeks since the accident. Luke and I are still not talking. It makes everything so much harder. I cry myself to sleep every night. I have to stop myself from crying throughout the day. It is hard to make it through the day without shedding a tear. It is bad enough I lost the baby, but I also lost Luke in the process. I am so upset with him. I cannot believe he ran. After all we have been through he ran through the door and I know for sure this time he isn't coming back.

Beau always calls me and texts me to see how I am doing. Within the first week I never answered his phone calls but then I remembered how Beau was like the older protective brother I never had. He was always there for me and was very protective over me. After a week of ignoring his phone calls I decided to call him and hear him out.

He was so happy to hear from me and didn't even mention Luke. He really cares about me and wanted to make sure I am doing okay. It is really sweet of him to do so. I am happy to see I am not alone in this.

However I have a feelings he hasn't told Luke or anyone he has been talking to me. I don't think Luke would be very happy if he found out.

I have hear a lot of rumors about Luke lately. I have heard he had gone back to his usual ways. My friend told me how she saw Luke at a club a few nights ago, and the girls were all over him. At the end of the night he went home with one. I am happy to see Luke is partying while I am at home suffering.

I have asked Beau about Luke but Beau doesn't like to bring him up. He told me that I shouldn't worry about Luke, that I am better off without him.

I know Luke has been probably sleeping with a different girl ever since we broke up. I don't want to believe it but after hearing all the rumors one of them have to be true. I can't believe Luke.

I know I shouldn't care because we are broken up. However we shared so much together and he was so special to me. He was my first love. He was my first time. He was my everything. I hate Luke. I hate him for breaking my heart and leaving me when I needed him most. However as much as I hate him, deep down I still love him. I have always loved him and I think I always will. I can't just forget everything that happened. Luke played an important part in my life that I will never forget.

Beau invited me to his house today. I am not sure why, but it wouldn't hurt to see him. I need someone to vent to because I have no one. I haven't left the house in a week. It has been to hard because I always and up breaking down in public and I hate having peoples attention.

Beau promised me that his family isn't going to be home. I told him no, but he isn't taking no for an answer. I don't want go over and risk seeing Luke. With my luck he will show up, or come home early.

I slip on a pair of black leggings, and I grab my oversize white dork t-shirt... Well Luke's. He let me sleep in it one night he slept over and I haven't given it back since.. Tears begin to fill up in my eyes as I throw the shirt in the garbage. I walk over into my closet and grab a grey Tshirt and slip on my white converse.

I grab my car keys on my bed side table and drive over to his house.

I take a deep breath as I approach his street. Memories and thousands of flashbacks come to mind. All the times I snuck out of my house to spend the night at Luke's. When he would sing to me when I am upset or scared. My eyes close in a wince as I stop my car in front of his house. I take a few deep breaths before I get out of my car and slowly walk over to the front door. I take a deep breath before placing my fist to the door. I quietly knock tapping my fist lightly twice on the wooden door.

Moments later the door opens and Beau greets me with a smile.

"Hi Kassy".

I smile slightly but Beau notices the tension.