There's No Turning Back (Luke Brooks)

Chapter 21

Beau's POV

Luke has been very to himself lately. He never comes out of his room. He locks the door so Jai cannot sleep in there or come in during the day. Jai has resorted to sleeping in my room for the past week. Luke has shut himself out completely. He hasn't talked to anyone at all in the last few days. He never comes outside of his room, not even to eat. If he does comes out he does it when he knows we aren't around. I think Luke has finally cracked. His depressed is at the worst it had ever been. He hasn't been talking his depression pills either, which isn't helping him.

I am really worried about him.

I sit at the kitchen table eating my breakfast when I hear the sound of footsteps. My eyes widen as I see Luke appear from the corner.

"Good morning", a small smile grows on my face.

Luke doesn't look at me. He walks straight to the fridge scanning what is inside of it.

"Have you taken your pills today?".

Luke still doesn't answer. Before leaving the kitchen he glances at me, showing me the pill in his hand.

His hair is a mess, his eyes bloodshot red. He has massive bags under his eyes. He looks sickening. He has lost so much weight since the accident. He looks like skin and bones. He hasn't showered in days either. He looks like a disaster. It breaks my heart seeing my brother like this.

"Happy?", he mumbles under his breath before walking toward his room.

I quickly get up and follow him but he closes the door behind him. I leans against his door lightly tapping on the wood.

"Luke.. Can we talk?".

No answer. I take a deep breathe.

"Mum and Jai went to Nonna's house and didn't want to you wake up so I told them I will meet them there. I was wondering if you want to come along?".

Still no answer.

"Luke.. Come on. Get some face air and sunlight. You haven't been to a gym in over 2 weeks. You are going to lose definition". I laugh slightly, but my smile quickly turns into a frown.

"Luke", I murmur.

I deeply sigh shaking my head in disbelief.

"Well I am leaving. If you want, it won't hurt to show your face. Nonna would love to see you... She misses you... I will be home later. Ring me if you need anything".

I am slowly losing hope in Luke. I am trying so hard to help him but he isn't letting anyone inside. How can I help him if you isn't letting me. I am trying so hard. I hate seeing him like this.

I just hope he doesn't do anything stupid.

Luke's POV

I feel like a prisoner. I have been locked up in my room for days now. I have lost track of the day of month. Like it fucking matters. The days seem to go by slow. I haven't slept in over a week. I lye staring at my ceiling wishing the suffering would end. But it will never end.

The small amount of light that peels through the window is the only light I see all day.

My throat dry, my voice numb. My body is weak from lack of food being consumed.

All I can think about is Kassy. Fuck I kiss her so much. I constantly think about what she was doing.

I wonder if she ever thinks about me... Or has she moved on? It has not even been a month. There is no way she has moved on.... I hope she hasn't. As selfish as I might sound I don't want her to be with anyone else. I hope she is alone. Forever. I know I will be. I will never find someone who loved me as much as Kassy did.