PUSH ME AWAY - Chris Sturniolo

-13-

Madelyn's POV

We were sitting on the couch and it was around 11 pm. When it came to sleeping arrangements one thing was clear. Matt is going with Millie. It was the obvious choice.

With those two out of the way, me, Nick and Chris were the only ones left. Obviously I would go sleep in my room, but Nick asked me if I wanted him to stay with me. I would be lying if I said I didn't want that, but as much as I hate Chris, I'm not going to let him sleep alone in a house he never slept in before.

"Go with Chris." I whispered to Nick and he just looked at me.

"Are you sure?" he asked me and I nodded, looking at Chris for a moment as I spoke.

"Yeah. I feel like he needs you more than I do." I told him and looked back at him. Nick nodded and went to tell Chris that they will be sleeping in the guest room together.

I told the boys to feel free to go to the kitchen if they needed anything or to wake me or Millie up. We all went to our designated rooms and shut off the lights as we dosed off.

A few hours later I woke up because of some really bad cramps. I rushed to the bathroom and lo and behold, my period came early. Great! Just what I wanted.

I grabbed my weighted stuffed animal and made my way downstairs to the kitchen so I could heat it up.

The house gave an eerie feeling and as I looked at the time, of course it was 3:30 in the fucking morning. I set my phone down in the living room and softly played some music to lighten the moment.

I put my stuffie in the microwave and pressed start. A few seconds later though the music stopped. Which never happened before. I slowly made my way to the living room to check my phone but as I turned the corned I heard a "Boo!".

I'd be lying if I said it didn't make me jump away but when I finally looked to where the sound came from I saw Chris dying laughing.

"What the fuck are you doing here?" I asked him, making sure to not make too much noise so I wouldn't wake up the others.

"I came to get a glass of water. Why did you get so scared?" Chris asked me while still laughing. I walked closer to him as we reached the kitchen.

"I didn't get super scared. You just caught me off guard–AHH!" I screamed and hid behing him while he was laughing his ass off.

"Sure you didn't. Relax, it was just the microwave, you scaredy cat!" Chris said and I only then remembered that.

"Shut up." I said as I opened the microwave and pulled out my toy.

"What kind of idiot heats up a stuffed animal?" Chris asked and took it from my hands.

"Come on Chris, give it back!" I said annoyed and in pain, yet I was still following him to the couch.

"Now why would I do that?" he asked me keeping the stuffie high in the air and I was getting so frustrated I could feel the tears starting to form.

"For fuck's sake, I need it! I know you hate me and all that but please Chris." I said, not planning on being vulnerable with Chris out of all people. The pain was getting to me and I started to feel dizzy so I sat down on the couch before I would lose my balance.

I looked at the floor, holding my stomach because of the cramps and before I could even register it, I felt the warm stuffed animal being placed on my lap. When I looked up, Chris had something in his eyes I couldn't comprehend.

"I know you hate me and trust me, I hate you too. But I won't let you suffer in pain. I'm not a horrible person." he said as he was making his way back to the guest room.

'I know you're not.' I whispered to myself as I cluched the stuffie close.

"Babe why are you on the couch?" Millie asked me as her and Nick walked towards me.

"I fell asleep here cause I couldn't bring myself to walk back up to my room." I told them as Nick frowned.

"Why were you down here in the first place?" he asked me and I sat up so they could join me on the couch.

"Womanhood." I said sarcastically and both of them got the message.

"Oh honey do you need anything?" Millie asked me and I shook my head.

"I'm positive If I need something I can get it. It's just a period." I said but as soon as I stood up I sat back down. "Yeah no, I'm seeing stars." I said as I grabbed my head with both my hands.

"Well, you are losing blood, dummy." Nick said as he got up and not long after, he came back with a bottle of water, pain medication and some chocolate.

A little later, Matt and Chris came to the living room too. Chris however, was avoiding any sort of eye contact with me, but who am I kidding? It's Chris who we're talking about. I should be used to this by now.

We ended up ordering some food to the house and played some board games to make the time pass. Over the hours, the meds I took finally did their job and I could move freely without wincing in pain every two seconds.

I excused myself at one point as I went to my room and closed the door. I pulled out my notebook and started laying the words down on paper. A few minutes later I heard a knock on my door so when I answered it I was surprised to see Matt standing there.

"Hey, is everything okay?" he asked me and I didn't know how to react.

"Uh yeah, why wouldn't it be?" I asked him back and he just gave me a smile.

"Usually when you just bail on us like that it's because of your anxiety, isn't it?" Matt said, leaving me with a shocked expression.

"What? How do you know?" I asked him again.

"I could tell. I have anxiety too, you know? You do certain things that can give it away if you pay attention. Just like you're doing now with your lip." he said, making me become aware of the fact that I was biting my lip.

"Oh, right. Well I'm good. I just wanted to write something down before I'd forget it." I said and he just smiled at me.

"Okay, don't forget you can come to me if things get a little bit too much. I'm gonna leave you to do your thing now." Matt said and started walking away. I thanked him and went back into my room, going back to writing the new lyrics.

*meanwhile in the living room

"You know you could've gone up there and check on her too, instead of sending me?" Matt asked his brother as he sat down next to him.

"I sent you because you understand these type of stuff and also, you're her friend. I couldn't go there. How many times to I have to tell you that I hate her?" Chris said with a scoff, already annoyed at his brother.

"Keep lying to yourself, buddy." Matt muttered so no one could hear him.

author note
is that Chris not being a bitch for once?
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