The 100 x Male reader

Sickness

A/N: New chapter. Hope you enjoy.

My legs were pumping with adrenaline.

I sprint towards where the shipped crashed.

"I'll talk to my people." That's what Anya told me when I shot up and started running.

I couldn't lose my dad. I couldn't not now I haven't.....

I tumble down a hill, slamming into a tree.

I groan, clawing my way back up to my feet. "Come on, Y/N. Come on. You got this." I climb up the other hill and continue sprinting.

It was just getting light out. It was early in the day.

I move through the tree line, past some charred and leaning trees. I overlook the crash site. Everything was ash and burned.

I quickly walk around, looking for any signs of my dad. There were charred bones, skeletons, and just a few limbs. The place was disgusting, the smell of ash and rocket fuel filled my nose.

I breathe heavily, pacing around. I scream and punch a piece of the ship.

Each scream. Each punch. I just needed to let my anger out.

And I did. For too long to count.

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Blood dripped down my fingers, onto an ever growing puddle on the ground, my knuckles were red with blood. I wrap a piece of cloth around it.

I was sitting on the piece of the ship. Whether it was floor, wall, ceiling or an engine was beyond me, half of it was in the ground covered in ash, burned beyond belief.

I was watching the tree line. Waiting.

I wouldn't have to wait anymore as Clarke, Bellamy, Raven, Finn and a few other delinquents came out. As soon as they see me they coming running, expecting me to be glad they're here.

I stand up, looking at Clarke. "What the fuck were you thinking!"

"What?"

"I said no weapons! You went against an order! One that was needed. And now, we can kiss any chance of peace out!" I was pissed, it was so stupid. Why did she tell them to come?

Bellamy speaks up. "Hey, they were gonna-"

I look at him next. "Gonna what? Shoot? Or were they just aiming? They were there to back her up. If I tried to kill her, they'd kill me. But I wouldn't have killed her. Anyone know why?" I ask them, but they all stay quiet. "Because I want to keep all of you alive! And you all just screwed it up!"

"Y/N, we can't trust them." Clarke starts. "You know what they can do."

"You want to know what you can do? You're a doctor, Clarke. Act like one. You're not the leader. Bellamy isn't the leader. I am. I brought you because I wanted someone I could trust by my side. But no. I have tried to not have everything on me, have some people I could have help me with leading."

"Y/N, we were trying to help ourselves, the rest of the 100." Bellamy tells me. "To keep us alive."

"No you just killed your sister! That's what you did."

Finn turns me towards him. "Hey, Y/N. Listen, we still need to look around for-"

"I know who was here. Any hands that were intact, I've looked for rings that look like my dad's and Clarke's mom's. Nothing. Any bones around, you can't figure out if it's them or not." I glance at Clarke. "We get back at camp and we'll be using the radio to see if they're... up there."