I love him but I hate me

3

*Now*

"Fuck!" I cussed under my breath after I stubbed my toe. I was in a hurry because I had to pack everything in my room because Im moving in with Eli and his roomie .
"Lottie ! C'mon ! U were supossed to be ready when I arrived !" He screamed from downstairs .

I woke up kind of late . Last night I forgot to put an alarm so I woke up 1 hour late . After my nightmare I had to take a shower and start packing . I started to panic , because I didnt know where to start . After 2 hours i had almost everything packed out . I only had my makeup and skincare products . Elijah helped with my 3 suitcases and 2 backpacks . Im proud of myself for only those . I was real organized .

"Coming! I only have my parfumes left!" Picking my parfumes and putting them in my backpack that I will have in the car with me . I run down the stairs and go in the kitchen to pick my warm sandwich I made for the car ride . I put on my shoes and take one look back to the house that traumatized me.

"Done , lets go !" I cheered getting in Eli's audi .
"Well hello to u too Miss Late!" He said while starting the engine .
"Oh c'mon! I was only 1 hour late , Eli ! Stop complaining so much , ur always late ! "

The half an hout went really fast . I listened to music , I stayed on my phone and had small talks with Eli . Before I knew it , we were in front of his apartment and I was shaking in anxiety .

What if his roomie hates me?
What if we dont get along?
What if its like dad?
What if-

Before i could say the 4th reason Eli intrerupts me .

"Ur not overthinking right now and want to go back , no? U know im here and nothing can happen to u Lottie ." Taking me into a bone crushing hug , I forget everything I over tought about and just melt in it .
"Im just a little bit anxious about ur roomie .." I said while trying to get out of his hug .
"Y'all will get along ! Hes my best friend! Hes just a little grumpy but if u get to know him hes really nice ."

I nod to his answer and putting on my backpack .He told me to go to the apartment 20 because he has to park the car and thats a 5 min walk back , so I guess I have to go by myself .
Going to the elevator I press the 20th button and wait for the doors to close .
Getting out of the elevator the anxiety came back . If I was with Eli , I might have been less stresses right now . But here we go !

I open the door slowly , and I see that the apartment it quite big . Its actually a pent house but Eli didnt mention it . I guess upstairs are the bedrooms and the bathrooms . From what Eli told me there is a bathroom in each bedroom . I take off my shoes and go into the kitchen because im quite thirsty . I look into the fridge for a cool water bottle , and when I find it I take it put and start drinking .

"I guess someone is thirsty ." A really deep voice said , that scared the shit out of me ! Putting my free hand on my heart , my eyes were wide and my breathing was fast , I look at where the sound came from . There he was . And damn! He really was hot !

"Fuck ! You scared me !" I tell him .
"U didnt know I live here ?" He asked.
"Well yeah , but I didnt expect you to come out of nowhere and scare the absolute shit out of me!"
"My bad I guess!" He said while raising his hands in defense with a growing smirk on his face.

"Oh shit ! I totally forgot to introduce me ! Im Charlotte but everyone calls me Lottie ." I said holding out my hand to him.
"Im Lucas but everyone calls me Luke" he says imitating my voice . Looking at my hand he takes me in a bone crushing hug , and ruffles my hair.

"Bitch!" I scream trying to get out of the hug .
"It took 1 hour to straighten it ! ONE . FUCKING . HOUR !" I scream kicking him in the chest . 'He doesnt even flinch !' I tell myself .
"Its a you problem not a me problem so...." He laughs . 'Even his laugh sounds good' I say in my mind . 'Stop' I basically scream in my head .
"Fuck you !" Rolling my eyes I put the bottle back in the fridge .