I love him but I hate me

3

*Now*

"Fuck!" I cussed under my breath after I stubbed my toe.

I was in a hurry because I had to pack everything in my room because I'm moving in with Eli and his roomie .

"Lottie ! C'mon ! U were supposed to be ready when I arrived !" He screamed from downstairs .

I woke up kind of late . Last night I forgot to put an alarm so I woke up 1 hour late .

After my nightmare I had to take a shower and started packing .

I started to panic , because I didn't know where to start . After 2 hours I had almost everything packed out .

I only had my makeup and skincare products . Elijah helped with my 3 suitcases and 2 backpacks .

I'm proud of myself for only those . I was real organized .

"Coming! I only have my parfumes left!"

Picking my parfumes and putting them in my backpack that I will have in the car with me .

I run down the stairs and go in the kitchen to pick my warm sandwich I made for the car ride .

I put on my shoes and take one look back to the house that traumatized me.

"Done , lets go !" I cheered getting in Eli's Audi .
"Well hello to u too Miss Late!" He said while starting the engine .

"Oh c'mon! I was only 1 hour late , Eli ! Stop complaining so much , ur always late ! "

The half an hour went really fast . I listened to music , I stayed on my phone and had small talks with Eli .

Before I knew it , we were in front of his apartment building and I was shaking in anxiety .

What if his roomie hates me?
What if we dont get along?
What if its like dad?
What if-

Before i could say the 4th reason Eli intrerupts me .

"Ur not overthinking right now and wanting to go back , no? U know I'm here and nothing can happen to u Lottie ."

Taking me into a bone crushing hug , I forget everything I over thought about and just melt in it .

"I'm just a little bit anxious about ur roomie .." I said while trying to get out of his hug .

"Y'all will get along ! He's my best friend! He's just a little grumpy but if u get to know him he's really nice ."

I nod to his answer and putting on my backpack .

He told me to go to the apartment 20 because he has to park the car and that's a 5 min walk back , so I guess I have to go by myself .

Going to the elevator I press the 20th button and wait for the doors to close .
Getting out of the elevator the anxiety came back . If I was with Eli , I might have been less stresses right now . But here we go !

I open the door slowly , and I see that the apartment it quite big .

Its actually a pent house but Eli didn't mention it . I guess upstairs are the bedrooms and the bathrooms .

From what Eli told me there is a bathroom in each bedroom . I take off my shoes and go into the kitchen because I'm quite thirsty .

I look into the fridge for a cool water bottle , and when I find it I take it put and start drinking .

"I guess someone is thirsty ." A really deep voice said , that scared the shit out of me .

Putting my free hand on my heart , my eyes were wide and my breathing was fast , I look at where the sound came from .