I love him but I hate me

6

"Eve!"I shouted from my room in desperation.
"What?" Eve replied back .

"I dont know what outfits to pack!" I scoffed.
"Let me help you ." She said.

"Finally !" I cheered closing my suitcase.
"Dont forget the towels and your pills for you know what ..." Eve said reminded me .

"I could never forget them . I cant go to sleep without them ..." I add softly.

"Lottie!" Eli yelled from downstairs . " Its 7:20!"
We were meant to leave at 6:30!"

"Fuck!" Me and Eve exclaim at the same time .

"My legs hurt from sitting so much!" Luke says while getting out of the car .
"Same!" I say yawning from my 1 hour nap I just took .

Its 8:50 in the morning , I usually wake up at 9:30-10AM but its still early for me .

We just arrived at the airport and im quite scared of the flight because I never flied before .

We are supposed to arrive in Parris at 9 PM or something like that . I don't really care . If we dont have any delay .

So I have time to take a quick nap and hope not to have any nightmares .

Going in the airport , we do the security stuff and then we just start talking about plans and routines for the coming week in Paris.

The time went really fast and now we are waiting to get on the plane .

I just found out that Im staying next to Luke on the airplane .

Great. Just great.

Its not that I hate him or something , I just feel something weird happening to me when I speak or stay next to him.

Do I like him or something? Nope ! Cant be happening! Im not saying that hes ugly or stuff  , he really is handsome and mouth-watering !

But hes Elis bsf!

Getting on the the plane and sitting in my window seat happily I wait patiently for the plane to take off so I cand just take a nap and maybe listen to some music.

"Have u ever flied before?" Luke ask while searching my face for an answer and takes a quick glance at my lips .

"Nope ." I say with an anxious smile .
"I can help u get trough it." He added while holding his hand for me to hold.

"Uh- what are you doing?-" I ask stuttering.
"Well we are going to go trough turbulence . Im trying to help u."

He says looking a little bit confused but with a sly smirk.
"Oh yeah ! I already knew!" I say trying to laugh it off and then I combine our hands .

Fuck! Whats this feeling in my stomach ?!

"U ok?" Luke asks me .
"Just a bit scared !" I add quickly making myself look suspicious.

While holding his hand I felt safe . Safe ? I never felt safe before . I always lived knowing that I might not to see tomorrow . I was just a child . A scared child .

I remember that when I was 16 ... If I wouldn't lose my virginity to my ex , I would have lost it to my dad just 9 days after ...

Not even Eve knew about this ...

*flash back*

"Fuck! I mutter . " Im fucking late !"Seeing that the time is 11:09 PM and I was supposed to be home at 11:00PM

"Its only 9 minutes after 11. Your dad wont be mad ,right?" Alex asks.
"Uh- Yeah but ... uh ... it was an important day for him." I responded trying to make a lie on the spot , stuttering from fear of whats going to happen to me next .