My gaze is drawn to Dag, who sits in the chair next to me, his expression unreadable. I subconsciously hug my knees closer to my chest, my eyes fixed on him. The silence between us is weighted, filled with all the things left unsaid and the tension still lingering from last night.
I take a moment to collect my thoughts, my voice soft and hesitant. "What happened yesterday...and what's going to happen... between us and everything...what does it all mean?" I ask, the uncertainty in my tone mirroring the confused jumble of emotions churning within me.
Dag's words cut through the tension, seeking to reassure me. "Everything is fine." His voice is gentle, almost soothing as he tries to reassure me. Despite the simplicity of his words, they hit me with a pang of something I can't quite name, a mix of emotions that swirl in my chest.
As Dag speaks, the words sink in slowly, painting a picture of the stark realities between us. The age gap, the contrast in our experiences, and the implications of it all.
"It means... you're fourteen. I'm seventeen. You haven't had a childhood, and you've grown up too quickly. I won't keep you in a relationship."His words are firm and filled with a sense of wisdom and perhaps even protectiveness.
I absorb his words, each one hitting like a blow. It's true. The circumstances of my life have forced me to grow up quickly, to become someone I never imagined being. Dag's realization of that fact, the compassion in his voice, is both surprising and touching. But it also feels like a blow to the heart, the reminder of all the things I've missed. I look up at him, my eyes searching his face for...what exactly? Understanding? Pity?
Dag reaches out, his hand brushes against my cheek softly, gently tucking a loose strand of hair behind my ear. The gesture is tender, the touch of his fingers on my skin sending a shiver down my spine. I find myself leaning into his touch as if seeking the comfort it offers.
As Dag speaks, his words hold a note of determination, a reassurance for both of us. "This means you're not leaving, and I'm not going anywhere. This doesn't change something that's between us." His voice carries a quiet conviction, an understanding of the complex connection that binds us together.
I take a moment to consider his words, the question echoing in my mind. What truly is the nature of this connection between us? We're not strangers, not lovers, in the usual sense, but we're something more, something different...
My voice is soft, a whisper in the silence, "What's between us...?" I repeat his question, my eyes searching for answers in his face.
Dag's smile broadens, his eyes locked on mine. "Madness," he replies, his voice barely above a whisper. There's a sense of resignation in his tone, as if he's known all along how complicated and intense our relationship has become. "It's madness," he repeats, his gaze never leaving mine.The corner of my lips quirks up in a small smile, mirroring Dag's. There's a sense of comfort in the recognition of our shared insanity, the acknowledgment that we're both lost in this tangled web of emotions. I feel a wave of warmth wash over me as he gazes at me with such intensity.
Dag suddenly moves away, creating a small distance between us. I feel the absence of his closeness, a sudden emptiness that makes me ache inside. I can't help but wonder what's going through his mind, what's causing him to pull away right now.
My thoughts are suddenly interrupted by the voice in my head, repeating over and over again: "Mistake. Mistake." The word echoes in my mind, a harsh whisper of doubt and fear. I struggle to push aside the intrusive thought, to focus on the present moment, and Dag, who's still sitting right in front of me.
Dag's hand reaches out, his fingers intertwining with mine, bringing a small measure of comfort to the turmoil inside me. He smiles at me, a soft, reassuring expression that seems to silence the relentless voice in my head.
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Experiment of Madness
RomanceWelcome into Devil's night series again! It looks like in Thunder Bay, there are new horsemen playing around.With new strategies and thoughts but this time on the chess board will play new pieces with different teams and wantings. We will all see th...