Chenford Story ✔️

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Grey's POV

Lucy came back to work after only a week off. Everyone had advised against in but she couldn't be stopped. At least she hadn't been getting any more death threats or calls from Rosalind, not that I could tell anyway.

It was nice to see that she and Tim were back together, not that anyone knew they were together until they had a baby. It was good to see how happy they both were, especially Tim. He was normally so grumpy, even to his superiors, but when Lucy was around it was like a switch had been flipped and suddenly he was making jokes and smiling.

There daughter was almost a year and a half old now and she looked like the perfect mix of the two of them. Lucy's long dark hair and Tim's bright blue eyes all wrapped up in one adorable toddler. I had been watching her at the station for a few hours a day while Lucy and Tim went on patrol, other than that Lucy was station bound so she could watch her daughter while working.

The mission to find Emmet seems like a lost cause, all of the information Lucy gathered was stored in her brain, and now it was all gone. Maybe somewhere deep inside her head it's still there but it would take a miracle to find it before I retire.

Lucy's POV

I knew something was wrong.
I had maybe known since leaving the hospital.
Something was wrong
I wasn't sure with what, or why I thought that, but something was most definitely wrong.

I think maybe it was Tim's reaction to me calling him, the hesitation in his voice that was normally so certain and sure of himself. Or maybe it was all the secretive talks of my doctors and Tim in the hallway so I couldn't hear.
I could just tell something was up.
And then there was the gap in my timeline.
The time that I called the void.
It just didn't exist to me. And yet it was always there. I just couldn't remember what it was I was doing, or why I was doing it.
Only that I had been alone. And I had been thoroughly researching something, or someone.

Tim didn't seem to know anything about it, neither did anyone I asked. So I could only assume that whatever I had been doing, no one else had been told. Maybe it was illegal?
No, surely not. I wouldn't have done anything illegal. I would never endanger my family.
Tim and Juniper were my world, everything would be fine.
I would just have to remember the void time. However someone goes about that.

3 months later

I had been trying, for months, to remember the two months that were now more of a haze.
Each day that had gone by, I was slowly piercing togather small fragments.

I hadn't actually gone undercover, I knew that I was doing about Emmet, my ex. I just had no idea why I was doing it, or what, if anything, I found about him.

Tim and I were great. I was more in love than I had even been with him. I wanted everything to be just how it was now, for the rest of our lives. I might have secretly been hoping that each time he took me out to dinner, maybe he would propose. We had been togather a year and a half now, it wouldn't be a surprise.
He just hadn't yet, maybe he didn't want to marry me? Maybe he just wasn't ready?

Tim's POV

For the last five dates I had brought the engagement ring for Lucy in my pocket.
I had been wanting to propose for weeks, months.

But it just...
I couldn't.
I loved her more than anything but somewhere inside. Engagement was a commitment. If we were to get married. And if Lucy didn't care about me anymore.
I would never be able to forgive myself for making her marry me. Especially if she remembered at some point in the future. I would be able to live with myself.
I wouldn't be able to live with divorcing Lucy. 

Lucy's POV

I had been feeling ill for a few days. My head had been feeling like it could explode for hours and nothing was helping. Mostly I had been bedridden and sleeping. Then on the third night, I woke up at midnight. And surely everything was clear.

I was going to find Emmet.
That was what I was doing.
And... Tim and I had broken up months ago.

I sat straight up in bed.
Tim woke up instantly at my movement and I subtly recoiled.
"What wrong babe?"
Tim's voice still sounded sleepy.
Not that I was ready listening.
Everything in my life had just come crashing downs around me.
Tim obviously noticed.
"Babe? Are you ok?"
Now I was less shocked.
Now I was mad.
At Tim mostly.

I turned to face Tim. Clearly my face was more angry than I had anticipated.
"Liar" I almost whispered it, my mouth barely moving.
Tim was almost immediately awake.
"Pardon?"
"You are a lying liar... Who lies!!!"
Tim sat up. Looking me dead in the eyes with an expression of equal confusion and realisation.
"W-what do you mean?"
"I remember everything Tim. I'm leaving in the morning."

Tim's face instantly went pale.
"Y-you... I-i I um i-i"
I pulled off the covers and got out of bed. Grabbing a handful of clothes from the dresser before walking out if the room, slamming the door behind me on the way out.

Tim's POV

I just sat in bed, staring at the door.
The mist important relationship in my life had just blown up over the course of two minutes.

Lucy had woken up and remembered everything about the lies and about our break up. And she had rebroken up with me.

I rolled over in our... my bed and opened my phone. Hoping to see a message from Lucy. Nothing. I called Angela.

"Tim? Why are you calling me? Do you know what time it I-"
"Lucy broke up with me again."
"I'm coming over, stay where you are"

Angela arrived within ten minutes, yet I had already started spiraling.
"Why did she break up with you?"
"She remembered Ange. She remembered everything and now she's leaving me all over again."
"Well yeah, you lied. Lucy obviously felt betrayed. Whatever made her break up with you in the first place clearly means she doesn't want to get back to after, even now. And you took advantage of her"

Now I felt awful. And I was awful.
I was a liar. And now I had lost Lucy because of it.
I deserved it all.