Are you coming back?
I have a classmate. Ive transfered schools many times and here i am comfortable wiyh my new school, my new classmates and this special classmate of mine.I consider her as my bestfriend last April 23,2019, who wouldn't? I'm always at her side, so does her. She always cheer me up, when I'm sad. She's always here at my side, whenever I want someone to talk with, she never left by my side. Let me name her as Kathy, and by the way call me Ethan. Kathy is so kind and she's too friendly. She's does have a lot of friend but she only trust one. And that's me. Everytime I ask her "Why won't you trust anyone?" She always answer me "Because I shouldn't, I shouldn't trust anyone" I ask her again , "Then why did you trust me?" She answered, "Because you are special to me".
I did cherish her a lot. I'm always spoiling her with foods, expecially when we saw her favorite foods and that is spaghetti and burger and about the drinks, she likes drinking milk tea. I'm always doing that for her. We have the same hobbies just like singing. I really likes singing, I play instruments too such as guitar and I'm always playing piano. I love playing with it since I was little and now that I have a bestfriend who's fond of singing. We get along with each other by playing music together, composing a new songs, a romantic songs or a sad songs whatever a song it is. I really love it when I'm with her.
We hang along with each other, same goes as our classmates what I mean is the whole classroom. All of my classmates. Sometimes we go swimming, doing sleep over, camping, and etc. Times goes by and our friendship together became strong. Stronger than your relationship. Just joking. As I was saying our friendship did get stronger than I thought. I never though I would have a bestfriend like her. A bestfriend who is always thoughtful. Maybe I did spoil her a lot. But still I love her. Sad to say that I can only love her as a friend. I can't love her more that just a friend. I have someone I love.
Months past by, we were always arguing with things. Even the smallest issues or whatever is it. Our argument will only get bigger if we both don't get silenced. It is so frustrating. I can't sleep at every night,specially when we fought earlier just like today. We came together at a mass and then after the mass I ask her to take a picture with me, and then after that she get angry. I don't know why she's angry. I just let it aside.
Weeks oast by and here it is. My bestfriend is staying away from me. This is what she said on chat.
"Let's stay away from each other."
"Why?", I asked her.
"In order to protect our friendship."
"Protect? What kind of protection do you want? I don't want to. I want to be with you. I want to be with my bestfriend, my little sister.", I said.
"It is way too better if we stay away from each other. It will keep us safe from issues.", there she said it.
"Issues, issues, issues. Fuck that issues. We aren't in a relationship why are so uou affected with that issues, Kathy? Why? Why are you so affected?", I ask her maybe for me that chat sounded like I am just angry but I know she will thunk I'd we talk personally I am now yelling at her.
"I don't care about the issues--", I cut her sentence. She was about to send something when I asked this.
"Then why are you staying away from me?", I asked.
"To protect our friendship.", that's what she said. Fuck that word "protect" why do her reason always say she wanted to protect our friendship? Ughh it's so frustrating. I can't take it. I can't let her stay away from me but if that what she want, I'll agree with it.
"Okay if that's what you want. Lest stay away from each other starting today.", I said it. I know she will get hurt of what I said even though it is only on chat. But still I need to do this. This is what she want.
I look at my watch it's already 10:30PM in the evening and the date is March 12, 2020. We did end our friendship after Valentines Day.
Weeks past by again and here am I lying on my bed. I did open my messenger but I also turn off my active status. I don't want to see her online and then she's not talking to me. It's sad to know that you're already attached to that person and then she suddenly want you to stay away from her. We never contacted each other since that that day. And me? I'm always talking to someone I can lean on. We are always staying up until midnight to talk about it.
There are days, I mean nights that I'm always crying. Asking myself.
"When would you comeback to me?"
"Will our friendship we back?"
"When will be the day that I can hug you?"
I'm always asking that to myself. And here's the last word I'm always asking to myself .
"Are you coming back? When will that be?"
It's sad knowing that the person who were attached for almost a year became a stranger just for one reason.
Lesson: Don't be too attached to someone, it might leave you one day
BY: K R S T N C Y Y Y Y
