CANCER
I was 13
You were 16
When we first met
I was 16
You were 19
When you had your first girlfriend
I never imagine na magkaka girlfriend ka, we were so close na akala ko gusto mo ako pero hindi pa la
I was 18
You were 21
When you decided to date me. You said that the girlfriend you had was just a lie, kasi gusto mo lang akong makalimutan.
I was 20
You were 23
When I discovered that I have a cancer. Lukemia. Cancer sa dugo. I thought you would leave me after na sabihin ko sa iyo yun. Pero mali ako you never left at my side.
I was 23
You were 26
Nasa stage 4 na yung cancer ko. I always push you away. Ayoko kong nakikita mo akong nahihirapan kasi mas lalo akong nahihirapan na makita kang ganyan.
Until the last day of my life andito ka pa rin sa tabi ko. You never left.
"Promise me one thing, love"
"What is it, love?"
"That you wouldn't be heart broken for a long time. Promise me that you would love another woman, have some family when I'm already gone"
"Love, that's so hard"
"I know. But you can promise me that? Right? Hindi ka naman magiging single sa buong buhay mo dahil sakin diba?", I ask him. "Love, my love. Magmahal ka ulit kahit wala na ako. I want to see you happy here while I'm up there watching you. I want to see your smile everyday"
I saw some tears falling from his eyes. I don't want him to cry pero kahit na anong gawin ko iiyak at iiyak pa rin siya. Alam ko sa sarili ko na ang hirap ng pinapagawa ko sa kanya.
"Always visit my Mom and Dad, Dan ha? Kahit na wala na ako, still you have to visit them"
"I will, Ashanti. I will always visit them"
"I want to sleep now, Dan. Goodnight. I love you"
"Sleep now, Ashanti", he said and kiss my forehead.
"Wake me up tomorrow okay? Gusto kong maglibot sa ospital"
"Okay love, I'll wake you up"
I slowly close my eyes after he said that
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That night, Ashanti slept peacefully. She said that I'll wake her up when the morning come pero hindi na siya umabot pa ng umaga. She died peacefully that night
To Ashanti,
Wherever you are right now, my love I hope you're happy. I'll keep my promise to you, don't worry.
You did fight for long. Nilabanan mo sakit ko for a long time.
Right now. I am already 27 and you are supposedly turning 24 this year but sadly you already past away.
Thank you for the memories we did together, love. I will always love you
BY: KRSTNCYYYY
