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Where should I stand?
Why do I'm always at the middle? Di ba pwedeng may mapupuntahan naman ako?
Bakit ba palagi nalang ganito?
Why do I am like this?
I grew up like thus, a stubborn little girl. Never listen to anybody. Even though my parent's. I never listen to them. A spoiled brat. I have my pride, my attitude that sucks! Fuck this attitude of mine. Why do I am like this? I always ask that.
"You better do something."
Ginagawa ko naman ang lahat ah? Para lang maging kung ano ako.
"Why don't you be like her? Like him? "
Why do you always compare me to others? Am I not enough for you? Bakit ba palagi nalang
"Why do you always carry that pride of yours?"
Masisisi nyo ba ako kung bakit ako ganito? Masisisi nyo ba ako kung bakit ako nag ka ganito? All of you are the reason why I'm like this.
Like I said I never listen to anyone. Except my grand mother.
Just like now. Here we are again fighting here at home. And here am I again I can't breathe. I'm always like this. Palagi nalang. Everytime na mag aaway sila dito sa bahay ganito ako. I never know how to calm myself. I always need someone to stay beside me lalo na sa ganitong sitwasyon
"Why do I can't calm myself?", I ask myself out of nowhere. Ugh! Di ko na nga dapat tanungin sarili ko jan eh
I opened my messenger. Looking who's online. And then I saw Devi's profile online. Siya yung palagi kong chinachat pag may problema ako. She listens to me, replies fast and gives me advices
"Love, I can't breathe.",
"Why? What's wrong with you again? Damn you! I can't go out, it's freaking 2am in the morning. How am I supposed to go out? I can't go there, Charity.",
"Nah don't go out. Just listen to me."
"Okay. Now tell me what's wrong."
"I can't do this anymore, Dev. I want to end my life right now."
"Here you are again. Talking like that. Please love don't think of like that. Please wag kang ganyan. Where are you? Inside your room?", she asked
"Yeah, I'm here inside.", I answered.
"Siguraduin mo lang na wala kang ginagawang masama jan, love ha."
"Nah."
I lied. Yes. May ginawa ako. I did prepare something to end my life.
"Love? Why do I'm so nervous ? May ginagawa ka jan eh, please lang love king ano man yan please wag mo ng ituloy."
"Too late, Love. I'm already doing this.", I ended the call after I said that.
HIS POV:
Devie Calling. ...........
"Lovee please don't do this"
HER POV:
I want to end everytime right now. I want to end this. If they want me gone, now then I'm gonna do this.
And just like that, I ended my life, my miserable life.
BY: K R S T N C Y Y Y Y
