Can you see me? (Cullens x B.fem reader)

Chapter 22: Reaction

            (Azira's POV)
'This is weird, why do I feel.. irritated? Is that it? Maybe so..' while trying to understand this sensation, i became more absent-minded and almost didn't notice when I finished my food. Thinking over the situation, I finally ended the silence by asking Edward, "So.. what's her reaction to this whole.. you know?"

My question seemed to catch him off guard and confuse the others judging by their expressions. Ignoring that, I look at Edward casually, raising a brow in question as I await his answer, "Well?"

He finally replies with an undertone of uncertainty i can't quiet understand is directed at as he says, "She's persistent.. she said she's not afraid. I confessed to her and.. I asked her if she would be interested in being together.. romantically."

"You what?!" Rosalie's outburst made me cringe at the volume as it almost attracted the attention of others in the cafeteria but they didn't keep much attention on our table. Patting Rosalie's knee under the table to calm her a bit, I shoot her a small reassuring smile before looking back at Edward and asking, "When did all this happen? Is that why I couldn't feel your presence in school for hours earlier today after classes started?"

Nodding his head subtly, he answers, "Yes, um.. she and I went out to talk in the woods.. that's when it happened, just today.." I give not much reaction to his words aside from casualty, going ahead to say to him, "Cool, I guess it was gonna happen at some point given how drawn you two seem to each other.. Goodluck with the relationship." Just as I finish saying that, the bell rings and it's the end of lunch period.

I get up after packing my lunchbox and give a brief smile to them before heading off to my next class that so happens to be History class. Getting seated, I pretend to pay attention to the class while zoning out on thoughts of what this relationship between Edward and Bella may end up causing, 'This is rather interesting.. they seem genuinely attracted to each other but it's not necessarily love.. atleast not how I see it. It's like she was curious about him mainly for his appearance and that curiosity grew from how he acted around her no matter how offensive..'

Flipping the page of my textbook casually, my thoughts become more analytical, 'To make matters worse, he was too indecisive with his actions as well.. from what I've seen so far, one minute he's trying to be friendly with her and the next minute he's being rude and moody over some light issue that could have been handled easily.. he is not in any state of mental or emotional stability to be in a relationship at all, especially not with a teenager who's going through that *I don't fit in* phase and obviously has immature mommy issues + estranged daddy issues judging by her lack of individual character.. this is a toxic relationship just waiting to happen..'

Throughout my deep thought, I could feel Jasper's stare drilling into the back of my head, the confusion and intent to question my earlier reaction palpable, I manipulated my force shield a little when we entered class to let him feel my emotions, something I've been doing for him for some days now to help divert his thirst and ability away from being overwhelmed by the people around as often as possible.

The calm state of my emotions seems to be what's confusing him most after what happened at lunch, 'Was he expecting me to get upset by it or something?' I wonder with a mild confusion, still going through my own experience of not having to rationalize everything and build more on my feelings to truly sync in with this whole bond thing. 'Emotions don't make sense..'

A few more minutes go by and the bell rings, 'Finally. This school life is really starting to get to me..' as I get up with my stuff and start heading out of class, Jasper is right there walking beside me. It's quiet between us for a brief moment before he breaks the silence in a hushed voice, "I take it you're not mad.. I'm honestly surprised."

"How come? Thought I would blow up or cry about it? Nah, I'm not that kinda girl. Never have been." I reply casually but with a firm truth, getting to my locker and grabbing some stuff as he accompanies me.

            (Jasper's POV)
Seeing her reaction earlier, I didn't know what to think, her calm demeanor is a puzzle in itself, 'She's genuinely calm so it must not have affected her.. is it that she doesn't care or is she not close enough yet to feel bothered by this turn of events?' I've never been this confused by a person's emotions before, I feel at a loss.

"Well, if I may ask, what is your honest take on the whole situation between Edward and Bella?" I ask her curiously as we stop by her locker, my thoughts still spiraling over internal conflicts, 'Will she ever love us?.. will she ever love.. me?'

My thoughts are cut off by her next words as she says casually, "Honestly, I can already see it's a doomed relationship. Both of them are unhealthy opposites attracting each other for the wrong reasons and trying to create something perfect between them with unbalanced material.." she closes the locker and looks up at me as she adds,

"At most, i give it no less than a month before something reckless happens to Bella either by accident or by unintentional purpose. Edward is more mentally destructive than he realizes but he doesn't notice this because he's so hung up on his physical attributes and doesn't know what to think of his past." Her words get me deep into contemplation, beginning to understand the logic behind how she sees this situation but my confusion still not clarified on why she's so calm about this.

As I walk her to her next class, I ask tentatively, "But if you already disapprove of this relationship between them, why didn't you say that to him directly?" Taking in every detail of her side profile as we walk, my focus is mainly on her as she replies, "Because I know no amount of words could ever steer either one of those to into the right direction. With their fragile states of mentality they have to experience the realities of what they chose to a degree before you can even begin to try and advise them, they are both very stubborn from what I can tell."

I can't argue with that, it's all very true when thought about seriously, I watch Azira walk into her class and I leave to my own class, her words still continue to weigh on my mind for the rest of the school day until the final bell rings and school is over for now.