LIABILITY - WILCO SOLANGELO

Ch. 35

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NICO POV

I didn't need to go to Will. Really. But I knew Percy was concerned and then he'd insist on seeing the cuts himself. And that was a recipe for a trigger. No way would I do that to him. I was kind of annoyed at having to admit to Will that I self harmed the day after our first date but I couldn't really be mad at Percy for any of this. 

He was just helping me. And he truly did. A lot. From cleaning together while singing to distract me to calming me down from a panic attack and being a shoulder to cry on, he had supported me in ways I never thought anyone would. I knew Leo would always be there for me and Will would always be concerned but Percy had this level of understanding from having been right where I am. And when he went into his ramble about self harm being a coping mechanism, something somewhere clicked in my head. And that was the main reason I was visiting Will. To find a way to get better. 

I hadn't realised the time but it was already past 8.30 when we found ourselves in the infirmary so Will was already awake and on duty. Seeing me and Percy, he frowned a bit. Neither of us visiting the infirmary could be good.

"What's up Neeks? Percy? Is something up?" Percy nodded and cocked his head to suggest we speak somewhere else. Will took us to a room and asked us the matter again. Percy looked in my direction to see if I would speak first. Like hell I would.

He seemed to get it and spoke for me, "Nico had an unpleasant night and hurt himself on his stomach. I wanted you to have a look to check if it requires attention since he, for obvious reasons, would prefer I didn't see the wounds."

Will's smile dropped revealing a look of pain before he put his medical concern expression up. He asked Percy to leave and checked my cuts. He said they didn't require stitches but insisted that I get them patched. He then lectured me on the importance of patching up wounds. I think it was his way of expressing his dislike for the situation. But not once did he bring up that the wounds were self inflicted. That was for me to bring up if I wanted to. And I appreciated it. 

"Will," he looked up as he bandaged my wounds, "I want to get better." A small smile made its way to his face and hope shone in his eyes.

"The first step to recovery is wanting to get better Angel. If you don't want it, no one can force you. I'm glad you want to get better and I'm willing to help in any way I can."

I smiled at the nickname. It made the conversation less tense and formal. Will was done bandaging me up now. He sat next to me and waited for me to speak.

"Could you give me an idea on how to go about it? Like Percy keeps throwing small tips and ideas at me that seem quite good but I want a professional outlook on how to go about the thing as a whole. The small details are obviously methods Percy has come up with after trial and error and while some may work for me I'll have to find what else works for me too. My question is - What's the first step to getting better? Where do I start?"

Will paused and considered what I had said, "I think the first step would be, having a person you confide to. Now you might tell multiple people what's on your mind, if something's bothering you and so on. It's good to tell the people you trust when you're not doing okay. But there should be one person, you trust and love who you promise to confide in. And this person should be the person you tell whenever you self harm. That means even if you feel guilty, even if you have a good day later on, you should always tell this chosen person. In fact, I'm sure that sometimes, the very thought of having to tell said person you self harmed will deter you from picking the blade. It also helps you control how often you cut. I spoke to Kayla a while ago and that's what she told Percy too. He chose Jason as his emotional support partner."