It's been a few minutes since I told Tyler that I had lung cancer. Since then we have both been sitting quietly in the living room and I look at him questioningly, wondering why he doesn't answer.
"Tyler, are you okay? Are you still here? Did you understand all of that correctly or do you have any questions?" He looks at me and runs his fingers along his three-day beard and tries to find words for what I just said to him.
"You've known it for so long and have already had one chemo, no even two, and you're going through this time all alone? Why didn't you tell me or Dad sooner? Does Dad even know yet?"
I just shake my head and press my lips together. "I didn't want to worry you any more. After Mom died, I didn't want to announce that I had cancer. No, Dad doesn't know yet. I told you first but I'll tell him later."
He just shakes his head as he stands up and I notice how nervous he is. "What are the chances? Did they notice it early enough? Do you have your findings here? Can I take a look at them?" I just look at him with a slight smile because he's not only the worried brother but also the worried doctor. "They found it very early, so the chances look good and no, I don't have any findings on me and I won't show them to you because that's exactly what I don't want, I want you to be my brother and not my doctor ."
He just nods understandably and I notice how he's about to cry, which is why I finally get up and give him a long hug and whisper in his ear that everything will be okay again because I'm a fighter. We talk a bit more and then I say goodbye to him around 5:00 p.m. and walk back to my car and I think I can finally breathe a sigh of relief now that I'm alone.
The worst thing for me is not the cancer but telling all my family members and then looking at their faces and seeing all the worries they are having at that moment. This breaks me every time. To be honest, I'm not ready to tell my father right away.
I'm on the way to my car looking for my car keys until a piece of paper flies out of my pocket. I pick it up and remember that Miles gave me his number earlier. I look at the note for a while until I pick up my phone and dial his number.
It's been ringing for a while and I'm hopeful that it's really his number. Just before I'm about to hang up, I hear a sleepy voice on the other end. "Grace? I didn't think I would see you again so quickly or hear your voice. Did you miss me?" I immediately get goosebumps all over my body again. I don't know why, but just his presence or his voice and the way he says my name makes me soften for a few seconds.
"I just needed someone to talk to who could solve my problems. I just told my brother and his world collapsed. "I've never seen him cry like that for me." I just hear Miles seem to get up and yawn. I can just imagine him walking around his apartment or house completely overslept and confused. With his curly brown hair hanging in his face. Okay no Grace don't get off course. Focus, you're engaged.
"I'm glad you finally managed to tell your brother. I'm really proud of you. But I can hear in your voice that you're not quite as happy as you should be?" Damn, how can a person I've only seen twice in my life know me better than my fiancé of 6 years? known for years.
"I feel depressed because I know it won't be the last time I have to tell someone my diagnosis, later I have to tell my dad and I'm afraid of seeing him done like that too." I stand leaning against the car and look into the sky and disappear into my thoughts for a few seconds.
"I can understand that, Grace." There is silence between the two of us for a few seconds. "I have an idea. Do you know this one pier by the sea that is right next to the rocks?" he asks me. "You mean the best spot for sunsets?" "That's exactly what I mean. I'll see you there at 6:30 no argument okay?"
I'm a little overwhelmed but I know exactly that I need to see him more than anything. "Okay, I'll see you at 6:30." I looked at my watch and noticed that it was already 5:40 p.m. and it would take me almost 40 minutes to get to the place where we wanted to meet, so I finally got into my car, said goodbye to Miles and headed to the beach.
6:30 p.m. I'm sitting here on the pier and don't see anyone coming towards me. I'm slightly disappointed and think he ditched me like all the men before him. I looked at my watch again and when I looked up I saw someone walking towards me with a huge picnic basket. I can hardly believe my eyes when I realize it's Miles.
He puts all the things on the floor in front of me and sits down next to me. He is completely out of breath and first brushes his strands of hair out of his face. "I'm so incredibly sorry, some idiot said to shut down the whole street. I just ran 10km with the picnic basket."
I just look at him and really have to start laughing and his look immediately becomes more serious again and I just look at everything he brought with him. "I think this is the sweetest thing ever made for me." I nudge him ever so slightly and he just shakes his head.
"Don't think so much about it, I just got really hungry and didn't want to eat all that alone." I just nodded in disbelief and took a deep breath. "You really are a bad liar Miles."
The two of us sit here on the pier for a while and watch the sunset. I wish I could freeze this moment because it is just perfect. I accidentally lean my head on his shoulder and immediately sit up straight again. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to... get that close." He pulls me back to him and shakes his head. "Never apologize okay you didn't do anything wrong."
"Apparently Grumpy Cat has a heart after all. I knew you weren't always so cold." He just looks at me with his green eyes for a while and shakes his head. "Don't think too much of it Sunshine like I said, I was just hungry."
"Just because you're hungry you tell me to come here and run 10km to see me?" When I said that he gets up and pulls me up and runs with me down to the sea. We both twist together a little until he stops and places my feet on his so that I can look him in the eyes. His eyes stay glued to mine. All you can hear is the sound of the sea, seagulls flying around and our breathing.
I press my lips together and look at his lips. My heart starts racing and I forget everything around me for a few seconds. Miles comes closer to me, I close my eyes and feel his warm, soft lips land on mine. I enjoy this moment but I immediately realize what I'm doing here and I push him away ever so slightly.
"I'm sorry... that was stupid of me. All of this is stupid of me. I didn't tell you something. I'm engaged." I just hold up my hand where there's a sparkling ring
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Hii this was chapter seven I hope you like the story so far I would love to head some feedback and how will Miles react about what Grace said? 🫠
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