MISTAKE 19

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Best Mistake- chapter 19

I still can't get over of what happened earlier. What the hell was I even thinking? Why did I even kissed her?

I kicked the sand out of the frustrations I'm feeling right now.

Something inside of me was pulling me towards her; urging me to kiss her and everything went so fast that I couldn't think straight in that moment anymore.

It was a mistake...

I left her after the kiss because I couldn't tell what I was feeling already. Lately everything had been so complicated.

I being kind to her just made things even worse.

The few days I've spent with her made me realize that she wasn't that bad at all and all this shits that's running on my mind right now only made me feel a lot more confused.

She is beginning to invade my system. But I won't let her because I know who I love and that is Sofia. I need to thicken my barrier towards her, this isn't right. I shook my head one more time trying to get away with such thoughts.

I wanted to hate her but I couldn't. I don't know the reason why, maybe because I care for her? Yes... care, that's all I feel. Nothing more, nothing less.

I felt the sun's temperature rising and the heat began to hurt my skin. I decided to head my way back to our room and check on how she's doing.

No matter how confused I felt earlier, leaving her alone was an inappropriate behavior.

Walking my way towards our door, I heaved a deep sigh. How am I going to face her after what I have done?

Shrugging all the uncertain thoughts I began to set my mind that what had happen isn't a big deal and I shouldn't bother thinking about it anymore.

When I reached the doorstep I knocked the door thrice waiting for her to open. I leaned against the wall just right in front of our doorstep while waiting for her to open it. But to my dismay nobody opened the door for me.

I tried to twist the door knob hoping that it wasn't locked and luckily it wasn't.

"Sydelle are you here?"

I hope she's fine even though I hated her before I have learned to at least care for her. That's all I could ever give to her in return for her love for me. If you would ask me if I love her already, still my answer is...

I don't know...

I'm still unsure of what I really feel because I really don't know.

Maybe I could consider her as a friend? At least...

I've searched for her in the living room area but failed to find her there. I went inside the bedroom and there I saw her fast asleep in the bed. I walked towards her and tried to examine her face.

My eyes landed on her closed eyes, those thick lashes that any woman would die to have. I traced the tip of my finger on the bridge of her nose. I wanted to laugh as I have remembered something about her nose, this nose that turns red when she gets mad or annoyed.

I couldn't contain my laughter for such memory that a chuckle had escaped from me.

And then my finger landed on her lips.

The event from earlier flashed back on my mind, her lips was red as plum no lipstick but still it was perfect.

How could this woman look so innocent?

How could I have hurt and broke this woman's heart so bad?

I don't deserve her love, I'm far from being worth it to have this angel.

I jolted when she suddenly moved and her blanket was half removed from her body. Her bare legs were exposed from my eyes. My urge from resisting to look at it was weak. She had long perfect shaped legs and it began to awaken something from me.

Fighting the desire I'm feeling I stood up and tried to fix her blanket fully covering her and I didn't let a bit of her skin to be shown.

The truth is we never did it.

I never ever have touched her since the day we became husband and wife. I don't even know if she's still a virgin or not. But right now it makes me wonder.

Has anyone already took the innocence of this angel? My hands formed into a fist just by thinking that somebody might had already touched her before she was married to me. The thought made me want to murder someone.

As I was busy with such unwanted thoughts a red stain from the duvet didn't escaped from my eyes.

What's this?

I tried to check on it and was surprised to see a blood stain. I quickly removed the covers not minding if I would wake her up.

She's bleeding For Pete's sake!

I searched for her wound and found out that it was only on her knees.

What had happened to her?

A sigh of relief came in to me for her wound wasn't that deep.

But still it's bleeding and I need to treat her wound immediately. I stood up and went to the restroom and looked for the medicine kit.

I am starting to think that this woman is really clumsy.

After having everything that I need for her wound, I began to start cleaning her wound up.

When all is done I've searched for my hanky to cover her wound. I tied up the knot on her knee and smiled...

This scene seems to be so familiar to me. I remembered that little girl whom I met at the park before.

I wonder how she's doing right now...


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