I BELIEVE

played them??

*Kehlani's POV*

I took my seat at the dinning table, I had no problem with that, but my only problem was that Xavier or Kai was sitting next to me, it felt as if he was so close I could literally feel his body heat engulfing me in one swoop.
"So Kehlani how does it feel like, working for my brother?" Grace said, snapping me out of my thoughts and also trying to make conversation.
"Well it's quite good, I love my work and the pay as well " I said truthfully.
And in my honest opinion anyone in my position would have said the same thing. Working for the McKenzie group was a big thing that people would literally kill you for if they had a chance, and secondly I was his assistant, one of the most highly paid people in the company if not the most highly paid person.
"If ever my brother were to give you a hard time don't worry about  giving me a call, I'll set his crooked spine, straight." Grace said as she gave her brother a wide smile. Xavier or Kai remained unfazed whiles I felt slightly scared. Were these people always like that.
Soon enough the chef and some of the maids started serving our food, the smell wafting through my nose could even make a bees mouth water, and yet they were known to produce one of the sweetest things in the world, honey. Enough talk about honey, I was soon to realize that it was actually my favorite dish. I turned to look at Xavier, who turned to look at me when he felt a pair of eyes on him. He was looking so oblivious, infact maybe he was acting so oblivious, because he looked at me with the "what's wrong?" expression. But as I looked deeper into his eyes. I saw something that felt so out of place......"longing". It was just there, as if he desperately wanted something, no he desperately needed something and he couldn't just get it no matter how much wealth he had. From the corner of my eye I saw grace lift her head to stare between the two of us, smiled and continued eating. I just couldn't divert my eyes from his oh so distracting orbs. Xavier or Kai or whatever his name is was handsome, no doubt, but for some unknown reason, I felt like if you really got to know him, you'd weep, sympathize with him and fall helplessly and hopelessly in love with him. And this thought alone made me feel a pang of pain gnawing at my chest as I remembered I had to act like his lover when deep down I didn't remember sh*t.
The thought alone had me pulling away from his attractive gaze and staring at my food instead, no longer feeling as pleased as I was when I realized it was my favorite. Grace and Xavier must have recognized the shift in my mood because Xavier asked.....
"Is the food not to your liking?" The first words he had spoken, since we entered the dining room.
"It's my favorite actually, I'm just a bit surprised, that's all" I said with a genuine smile.
Whoever said gazes can't speak was a goddamn liar because this man f*cking looked at me like I was the rarest jewel in the world and my heart f*cking melted. To be frank, I'd never felt so happy in my life.
Sometime during the conversation as we ate, Xavier's hand lazily drew circles on my exposed thigh, just soothing me but not trying anything else. Deep down, I wished he would try something else.
When we were almost done with dinner, I excused myself to the restroom, knowing deep down that Xavier or Kai would eventually follow me. I stood in front of the sink, begging God to give me enough courage to be able to do this. Just like I had anticipated, Xavier walked into the restroom and closed the door behind him.
"Xavier" I whispered slightly, looking at him through the mirror with so much love that, I began to question myself if this was really fake or........
"Sweetheart" Xavier said with such ease that I felt I'd be reduced to a puddle in front of him.
"I....I remember everything" I struggled to say. Xavier stood there, looking confused until realization finally dawned on him. But then I felt like he had to be sure so he continued.....
"What do you remember, darling?"
"Us" I simply replied as I turned to look at him.
"I remember our first date in Spain, and I remember that you bought me, a gold rose instead of a red one, I remember the day I finally accepted your proposal after two years of ignorance, I remember the night.....we had sex.....I remember everything" I finished with a blush.
"Which country did I take you to for your twenty second birthday?" Xavier asked as tears welled up in his eyes.
China never mentioned this, f*ck, i was screwed, Xavier stared at me patiently as I tried to rack my brain for anything at all. I closed my eyes and took in a deep breath, feeling defeat sinking in as I opened my mouth and uttered the words on the first thing I saw in my head.
"Sicily" I muttered, Sicily has always been a place I wanted to go to, i don't even know why I uttered that country's name but I just felt like it was the right thing to say. I was expecting anger from him but the next thing I felt was large arms embracing my whole form.
"Love.....I f*cking missed you" Xavier uttered.
I was so shell shocked, I couldn't move a muscle, china was right, I was indeed reincarnated it seems Xavier remembered  everything. My mind was a blurry mess as fear, anger, pain and other foreign emotions I couldn't really pinpoint seeped in.
My whole life was a sham. Xavier broke the embrace and grabbed my hand as he pulled me to the dinning room.
"Grace, Kehlani remembers everything!!" He said with so much joy. I could have sworn I'd never seen anyone this happy before in my life.
It seems grace finally realized what her brother was saying and f*cking jumped into his arms. They were having a f*cking reunion when I was here sh*tting myself. Immense fear gripped me as those blurry images which always gave me a migraine appeared and tried to be clearer as ever and the voices were so loud, it even couldn't be compared to a migraine anymore.
"No!!!!!" I screamed as I landed on the ground with a thud. I looked at them with fear, so f*cking evident in my eyes.
"You....you....you... can't......you....just can't be real" I stuttered as I tried to convince myself, dragging my ass on the floor as I pushed further away from them.
I saw something like dread pull in Xavier's eyes, then so suddenly it was replaced by anger, anger I thought I'd never seen in my life. Grace just stared at me wide eyed as realization kicked them in the gut. I had played them.