You're Just A Lonely Star | FranSykes | (boyxboy)

Forgive and Forget -29-

---JOSH POV---

I felt as though all the walls in the world were closing in on me. Like compared to the earth I was next to it instead of upon it, and alive. Nothing was as it should be, everything became blurry as I stood with Max making sure everything was right backstage.

He looked up at me and noticed my pale skin, heavy breathing and dry lips, and immediately took me to a chair.

All I could see in my mind was Oli, I missed him. All of my family, I had been forced to leave them just when everything was turning out okay, and I didn't want to miss out. That's what it was, I had a fear I would miss out on everything.

'Josh, I think you need to leave the tour.' Max told me as I looked at him confused. I don't think he realised that You Me At Six could not perform if any one of us wasn't there, especially me.

'I can't.' I told him as my voice stuttered frantically.

'We haven't got a gig tonight, go home. Honestly it will be the best thing for you, we can't have you perform like this tomorrow, can we?' He explained as I agreed with his theory.

An hour later I found myself in my car, feeling almost completely better just knowing that I would reach Oli soon. I decided not to let him know I was coming back for the day because he loves surprises.

When I arrived, I parked my car slightly further down the road so he wouldn't see it, and I knocked on the door differently to how I would usually knock.

Oli's face appeared and he was completely shocked. He threw his arms around me and kissed my lips. He pulled away when he saw how pale I was, and instantly became concerned.

'I'm fine now, Oli. I needed to come home. I felt as though I was missing out on everyone being happy so I had a bit of a moment, but I'm okay now, you don't need to worry.' I explained as he was reassured and slightly overwhelmed because I came off of tour just to see him.

'There wasn't a gig tonight anyway, I didn't miss you that much, you idiot.' I joked as he laughed along with me and we walked into the house.

Instantly, my mind filled with beautiful melodies and harmonies going together like a key and a lock.

The sound continued to grow louder until I walked into the living room, seeing the source of the angelic melody.

The familiar faces of both Taylor and Elissa were sat on the sofa's, guitar in hand.

They sung the breath taking lyrics of The Goo Goo Dolls as Elissa harmonised with Taylor's voice. It was like getting two genres of music and mixing them together.

The song Iris rang through the house, making everyone's ears appeal to the beautiful sound filling the air.

Oli and I sat around them, Blake in the middle of us all as the two of us counted ourselves in and started to layer Wonderwall on top creating a mashup of the two songs. Oli and I sung our own little parts of Wonderwall and completely improvised but it sounded heavenly.

The two songs fitted together like a glove, or a jigsaw puzzle with no missing pieces. Even Blake tried to sing along which we all admired and laughed at in the midst of singing.

I got out my phone whilst singing and started to record it because in this moment I know that everyone is okay, that everyone is getting along, and that I'm not missing out.

I wanted this to last forever. I wanted to freeze time, slow it down so that I didn't have to grow any older, do anything else, or worry about anything going wrong. I wanted to stay here.