You're Just A Lonely Star | FranSykes | (boyxboy)

Take Your Breath Away-21-

---JOSH POV---

Later that day, Oli and I were just in my room, talking.

I watched as Oli opened his mouth to speak, and he said the words,
'Josh, should we visit Blake?'

I felt my face become hotter by the second, and I was speechless.
The words were left, echoing through my mind as if they would never leave.

Oli saw the complete nothingness, painted all over me as if I was a canvas. He just looked at me, waiting for an answer.

Seconds later, I realised I had been standing there, staring blankly at him, for about 30 seconds, so quickly opened my mouth to speak.

'Nah...I've got some admin shit to do...not stopping you though.' I tried to say, with as much sadness as possible. However, from Oli's reaction, it came across that I didn't care.

'We can't just never see him again.' He told me, with a slightly firm tone to his voice.

The words 'and never come near my child again' had now replaced Oli's words, and spun through my mind, constantly. It was as if they would never run out of energy, and they would keep spinning, and never get dizzy.

Although they might not be getting dizzy, I felt myself become dizzy.

The words in my head started to make my mind completely self destruct, leaving absolutely no defences behind. I felt like this was the end, even though I knew it wouldn't be.

I could just make out the spiralled figure of Oli standing before me. I couldn't tell whether he was moving. My whole body had gone completely numb and I couldn't feel anything at all.

In a way, I felt more alive, like my life had become so much more exciting. But my brain then switched to reality, where I was lying on the ground in what felt like complete darkness.

I roughly heard the voice of Oli, saying my name repeatedly, but when I tried to answer it seemed that nothing came out.

The sound of his voice gradually became quieter, until it had faded out completely silent. Nothing.

The next thing I knew, I was lying on the sofa in the living room, Oli kneeling down by my side constantly checking if I was breathing and trying to communicate with me.

I kept feeling his hand shaking me beneath the complete numbness of my body.

Gradually my senses became more alive, and I had the strength to open my eyes again, much to Oli's relief.

'Josh, what happened? It's been half an hour.' He tried to say soothingly, covering up his sheer worry for me.
I cleared my throat and waited until I was completely prepared to speak again.

'I...I don't know.' I lied, as I tried to cover up what happened with Taylor.

'You sure?' He asked, still in shock.

I didn't have much strength yet, so I just nodded and told him I needed some rest.

I closed my eyes, feeling at home and relaxed as I felt Oli sitting by me, allowing me to rest my head in his lap as I lay there for a couple of hours.

The vibrations of my phone, constantly, was making me drift in and out of sleep. Eventually, I took the phone out of my jeans pocket and lay it flat on the table, screen down, without checking who was trying to get hold of me. I decided my rest was more important than whoever wanted to speak to me.

A while later, I felt Oli moving around a bit his arm reaching over my body, to get - what I assumed was - the TV remote from the table in the middle of the room. I could just hear Elissa's singing from upstairs comforting me as I drifted back into sleep, without a single worry.