Lover

16] Confused Convo

Jungkook's pov:

Heavy footsteps , indistinct murmers , fading voices --- some familiar, some not.

My chest ached as I tried to shift my body. It felt as if I had lied down for a long and my body was fully exhausted with no energy in me.

Low and slow beeps , a little rustle and shuffle around me wanted me to sit and see but my eyes were heavy too.

Eyelids felt like rocks but nonetheless I fought the exhaustion and opened my eyes slowly.

White and sky blue was the first thing I saw.

Light . White light it was.

And blue was my surrounding. The walls were hued blue.

But it was irritating my eyes. I could not bare the brightness anymore , I was about to close my eyes when a huge figure blocked that annoying irritation.

The figure.

Known, it was.

I knew this figure.

Yes, I did.

But my vision was blur. I could not see it properly. Yet his voice was coming to the back of my head.

The person was saying something.

The person sounded happy.

He.....He was smiling.

My vision started to turn clear by passing seconds as I blinked my eyes but before I could look at the face , it was gone and replaced by some doctors.

" How are you feeling , Mr. Jeon. " one of the doctors wearing mask , asked.

He was wearing glasses. Looked in his late 40s with wrinkles criss cross at the corner of his eyes.

I tried to open my mouth and speak but it ached. My throat was parched. It was dry and so dry that I felt it stick.

I struggled speaking but somehow I gulped out a mumble , " F-fine. "

Oh Jesus!

My voice was so groggy. I had definitely lost it!

How was I so exhausted and so weak---

Wait!

I fell.

I FELL!

I fell from the stairs.

I DID!!!!

oh my!

My heart thumped as soon as everything started to come back in the form of flashes.

I was in there.....in my room. Writing. I was drunk. More than I should've been. Well, I shouldn't have drank at all. It was dangerous. But I did. I couldn't hold back. I was upset.

Upset because of Taehyung's behavior and I wanted an escape from his thoughts.

Oh God!

My head might explode if I think any further.

I breathed , gulping down my parched throat with an uneasy frown before a mere whisper left my lips. " W-water. " I said at which the doctors visibly stared at me in confusion.

They looked puzzled and weird at the same time making me hiss out a groan.

" You must not need water after waking up. Your body is having enough water through the IV. Are you thirsty? " Doctor asked making me nod in discomfort.

This bed felt so uncomfortable and also my body acted like a freaking log which was too heavy to be moved.

" Increase his dosage. " The doctor said before walking towards the screen near set on the framed shelf beside my bed. He took a good and brief look of it before he muttered something to the nurse beside him who froze in her place before craning her neck at me and with the way she was giving me that I look , I doubted about what was happening or if I was actually fine.

I could not find anyone in the room, accept the doctors anymore. But I clearly saw a hazy figure of somebody familiar because that person wore dark clothes and not white aprons which these doctors were in.

The doctors kept on talking with each other and they were mumbling and muttering which I could not hear properly because maybe my hearing senses were not working properly, their voice was sounding too far away from me as if they were somewhere in the corner .

" D-Doctor. " I strengthened out again , gasping with my parched throat before hushing out a cracked voice. " I-Is some---s-someone here. -- my f-family?" I didn't know whom I was referring to , nonetheless I asked feeling awfully awful at the thought that Taehyung was not there with me even when I was in this state and then he used to say that he loved me .

" Your husband , Mr. Jeon. Sir Kim is outside , waiting. " He said making my heart flip in hurtful folds.

Hearing that, suddenly I didn't want to see him. Not because I hated him but because ...... because , I just.....couldn't. I didn't know how he would react and the last thing I wanted was him to be sad because the way he acted all reckless and uncaring about me, this thing kept me hating him and now if he made any sad face, how would I be suppose to look at him with hate and disgust.

He loved me.

I knew that.

But I couldn't.

I couldn't love him back.

How could I love someone who had taken everything away from me?

But the irony is that, even after hating him, I couldn't hate him at some point now.

Not anymore.

Not when the things have changed and not when I was hiding a huge secr---

" Mr. Jeon , are you feeling alright? " The doctor asked again. His voice had confusion held in it as he looked down at me bringing me out of my thoughts.

" Y-Yeah. S-shouldn't I? " I asked at which the doctor chuckled shaking his head before speaking , " Trust me when I say that I am the happiest person after seeing you like this."

His voice contained sass and sarcasm at the same time which made me reach the point where it could've been related to Taehyung.

" Yes. You coming into consciousness is like another life to us! " Another doctor expressed laughing out and now I could clearly get what they meant by that.

Taehyung was making them shit in their pants all this time. Their faces showed relaxation and now at this moment I wandered where that man was.

Why he was waiting outside?

If so much worry for me , then how could he be able to stand outside.

But before that , another question struck my mind and I almost lost my breath.

My eyes turned moist as I got afraid of the upcoming issue. I had to ask a question to the doctor. I had to do it to know if .......if I was actually fine. 

" Doctor----"