COLD HEARTED MAN ( Book 2 )

UNKNOWN FEELING'S

MATT MATT'S POV

Nagising ako dahil sa ingay ng iyak ni Mara, kahit inaantok pa at ayaw pang dumilat ng mata ko pilit akong bumangon at pag tingin ko sa orasan ko sa alas dos palang ng madaling araw, nasa kwarto ko si Mara matulog si Maro naman nakay yaya, hindi sya pumayag kagabi na nasakin yong dalawa,

"It's too early for you to cry baby,"

Reklamo ko, I check her diaper and it's already full but before I change it I make milk first sakto yong iyak nya sa time alarm ko para sa feeding time nya, after ko mag timpla inayos ko lang sya ng higa at pinalitan ng diaper bago binuhat at naupo sa rocking chair na pinabili ko kay papa, pinadede kuna rin while humming so she stop crying.

A life now was really different, I am now a big brother of two, but to my papa I am still his baby, nagulat pa sya ng umuwi ako kagabi subra inis ko talaga kanina nong pauwi ako but when I saw Mara and Maro lahat ng inis ko nawala. One of the reasons why I need to stay at the condominium is because of the renovation of our house maingay daw hindi ako makakapag fucos yong mga bata naman pag umaga nasa bahay nila mamala at papalo si yaya ang nagaalaga kasi si papa kailan na sa DF si daddy naman sa Fuego ako nasa university pero pag gabi nandito kaming lahat.

Yong renovation ng bahay inuna na nila daddy, hindi narin kami nakapag bakasyon kasi hindi ko maiwan yong mga baby kaya ang ending walang umalis, bago simulan yong renovation matagal pinagisipan ni papa at daddy una bahay to ni papa at maraming memories na meron sya with daday Matthew nong una nagdadalwang isip pa silang iparenovate sabi ni dad kung hindi lang daw utos ni papa noon na magkaroon na ako ng kwarto hindi malalagayan ng kwarto to but after a long time of thinking papa decided for a full renovation, sabi nya this house was full of memories with him and daddy Matthew but this house also full of memories with us not just a happy memories but also a sad and full of pain memories and maybe the renovation was lessen the reminiscing about what happen back then. The renovation was started pero inuna nila daddy yong sa likod nabili narin namin yong kadikit na kupa dito sa bahay kaya don na muna sila nagsimula and by next week sa bahay muna nila mommyla sila papa at daddy pati narin yong kambal at si yaya ako naman sa condo muna pero pag weekend uuwi ako.

( Humming Sining )

"When I first saw you and Maro I fell in love with you two, but days goes by I am not just in love with you and Maro it's more than that, ngayon naiintinhan kuna yong isasabi palagi ni papa na I am not just his son I am his savior, you and Maro was the one who's save me you guys was the one who made me realize I can smile and be happy, Mara I promise that will be a best kuya I will do everything to make you both happy, I won't let anyone hurt you or anything to make you feel in pain, I love you my baby"

I kiss her forehead and lay my back on the chair while feeding her until i fell asleep.

KINABUKSAN.

Nagising ako nakaupo parin sa rocking chair ko at wala na sa katawan ko si Mara kaya nataranta ako at hinanap sa crib nya pero wala sya don kaya nagmadali akong lumabas ng kwarto,

"Baby what happened,?"

Agad na tanong ni papa sakin ng makalapit sya galing sa kusina,

"Where's Mara?"
"Akala ko naman kung ano relax, she's with your yaya, umiyak kasi kanina pag labas ko galing sa kwarto tapos pag pasuk ko sa room mo ayon umiiyak na nakadapa sa dibdib mo umaga narin naman kaya kinuha kuna para mapaliguan at mapadede narin, ginigising kita pero hindi ka magising kaya hinayaan kuna, you look so tired sabi ko naman sayo wag ka ng umuwi kung weekdays para makapagpahinga kana kaagad"
"I'm fine papa, kayo yong pahinga ko, natakot ako nawala si Mara akala ko nalaglag na, nagising kasi si Mara kaninang madaling araw gutom I feed her until we fall asleep on the chair"