If only I paid more attention. If only I talked things out with you. All the if only's were running through my mind, screaming at me, telling me I should have done better. I know I will meet you again in another universe? I won't make the same mistake again right?
I should have listened to all right? I am tired. Giving up is scary and hard. I hope we meet again. We will right?
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JISUNG POV
I hate it. I hate this. I hate myself. Sheer Hatred is running through my bloods telling me that it needs freedom. The freedom to come out of my body and flow like a river. I feel like a suffocating weight with distorted thoughts and actions. I am surrounded self-doubt, self-blame, or unrealistic expectations or my flaws and mistakes. There is room much of this. They are coming at me and I can feel it. I feel like screaming. I wanna escape. Someone remove me from this prison.
The prison. It's a dangerous one. Im a prisoner of this cruel world, my toxic brain and pretty much everything. The cycle of negative thoughts is making it hard for me. I can't find peace. I just wanna disappear. no matter what i do, it will never be enough. It's never enough.
I sigh as I hear the alarm ring. I hear my parents scream at me as usual. I can't wait for them to leave. Of course they won't help me with the moving. They have something important waiting back in Malaysia, their beloved son. Brian must be their only child, do they ever acknowledge me?
"HAN JISUNG! ARE YOU GOING TO BE A DISGRACE AND SHOW UP LATE AT SCHOOL ON YOUR FIRST DAY" My father screams again.
''Im done. I am coming down" I quickly grab my bag and run down the stairs. I look over to find my father eating my favourite, chocolate pancake. It looks so good. Wow
"Im sure you are gaining weight. You do not need to have that ji." My mother smiles at me sweetly as she speaks. She is right. I have been eating a lot. "She is right jisung. Go now quick school will start soon." My father speaks
Yes father. Goodbye Mother and Father. I hope you have a great day." I bow down to them and leave the house. Why would I call it a home if I don't even feel like living there or anywhere in fact. I finally reach the school. I can't wait to meet them. It's been so long since I met them. I mean 5 days is a long time right?
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Hayran Kurgu"forever?" "forever!" _________ A Minsung Fanfic When Lee Know is Han Jisung's forever and Han Jisung is Lee Know's forever. _________ Started: Thursday, 14th November 2024 Finished: ALL RIGHTS RESERVED
