The Diary of Lauran Tenique

Entry #13

Entry #13

  -"If I die, don't cry. Look at the sky and say goodbye."

    I read Tim's note over and over again. I could've saved him. I could've been there for him and maybe, just maybe he wouldn't have left. Maybe he wouldn't have left me, knowing I could've helped him. Why couldn't he just have said something. He knows I would've been there for him. He left knowing I would be alone again. With just Margeret and Cody.

    My eyes opened as tears slid down my cheeks. How could he leave me knowing my life is hell. How could Timothy just ditch me. He said he loved me but if he did why would he just go.

    My knuckles were cut and bleeding from me punching the walls so much. My vision was blurry as tears were blocking me from seeing where I was going. I haven't cried in so long. Why now? I was doing so well. So why now? I got out of bed and stumbled towards the living room with his note still in hand. My legs felt weak but my heart felt heavy. How can I feel nothing but something all at once? I put my hand onto the wall for support, unable to hold myself up anymore. Cody looked over and got up rushing towards me. "It's okay. I got you." It's okay... I took those words and fell to the ground. I looked one last look at his note before my eyes shut.

    "If it doesn't break your heart, it isn't love."