Goyim Study Guide

Beginning of the End of my Idolatrous Ways

I just wanted to give you all an idea, on what it is to worship our G-d, the G-d of Avraham, Yitzchak, and Yaakov.

I have to be honest, it has not been well for me. My parents are Idolaters, I told them about my belief in Judaism, yet, they say that they accepted my beliefs, yet, they forced me upon their Idolatrous ways. You see.... I was raised in Chinese Buddhism, one where they worship many gods and beings that are servants to gods.

My family also did ancestral worship, offering our ancestors rice, and cuts of meat and vegetables. My father was a vessel to their gods. It was very wicked, I watch as people chant in Tibetan, my father would gag, stagger and their "gods" would take over. They require people to hold the throne to prevent my father from falling. A very wicked practice.

As I am writing this, I am still living with my parents. 🥹

I also unknowingly engaged in Satanic stuff on Roblox when I was around 11 years old.

My mother would keep forcing me to wear her religious items, but I said no, and she gave me the stink eye.

Nevertheless, if the pain and trouble become to bad, I would cry out in anguish to our G-d, who created the light and separated it from darkness.

Because I refuse to give up HaShem and go to worship their "gods", those very same entities that did not help me as I got sick from COVID-19 during 2020 and became an atheist, because I saw no deity in sight as I suffer with the virus.

So, I had an existential crisis for around 2 years, thinking that life is meaningless, that was until I came upon Buddhist enlightenment, I tried to deny myself pleasure or any desires, and guess what? I got sick immediately! 💀

So I quickly abandoned it, and became a witch that also found out about paganism.

This phase of mine was awful, I went to many spiritual servers on Discord. Particular 5D Ascended discord server, the staff were also brainwashed, I was brainwashed. My happiness was determined if others on the server would speak to me or not. You see, I do not have friends in real life, no true friends that cared about me and go about in my path.

So, when all of a sudden, after 2 years, they ignored me, I was in deep depression, being called a child and having someone else became mod instead of me during my internship, was awful.

I felt like I was disposable, that I was not needed anymore...as a witch, I used many forms to magic to help people, to keep them from dying and all, but now...I realized, I was only doing it for the cost of my own well being and happiness. I was really depressed.

So I left, and found another spiritual server. The community was great, we would have weekly astrology chart readings, it was like a family, until my madness got to it. People threatened to doxx me because I refuse to share personal details, and their dms were leaked via dms from a friend of mine who were in the server. They called me mentally ill, and I should have known that they were possibly right about that, if it weren't for the fact that this friend of mine said that they were in kahoots with Saint Michael.

So, we were both insane! 😅

Kinda odd, now that I am talking of it. I could see I was completely nuts, but so were many people. 

Anyways, it was due to constantly getting into these types of people that I finally found another spirituality witchcraft discord server! 😆

I was in a channel, asking for spells recommendations and asking about energy work. When I met the owners, two Jews practicing sorcery. At the time, I had no idea what Judaism was as I live in the far east, with barely anybody knowing what Judaism is, except for the Muslims of the country.

Since I have only known about open practice religions, I asked if I could be Jewish.

They told me that I cannot become Jews, unless I convert, they basically introduced me to the world of the truth! That they have strayed from, I asked them more, as I was really interested as the mystics that I searched up on Wikipedia really peaked my interests, perhaps...I have always liked those kinds of things that I delve into paganism, or as they like to call it "Polytheism" in some cases. 

Baruch Hashem.

Now that I am out of that uneducated era about Judaism.