i couldn't remember how i got home that night. i woke up around 2 in the afternoon.
i mean, my car keys were on my nightstand, and the car was parked outside, so obviously i made it back without too much trouble. jodi's weed was definitely something.
i opened my phone and saw a text from about an hour ago. my heart dropped.
it was from ash.
> hi > can we talk
i stared at my phone for 10 minutes. what the fuck could she possibly want to talk about? okay, maybe the whole thing with sal may have been partly my fault, but whatever! i had a right to be upset. they didn't.
part of me wanted to just say 'yes! please just be my friend again!' but another part of me wanted to just block her number right there and then.
but that might be a little awkward. considering i literally live in the same building as sal and larry and she's over here almost all the time. not to mention school!
i began typing.
< sure
had to play it off cool, ya know?
i just wondered if we were really about to have this conversation over text, but my question was soon answered.
> can you come down to larrys
shit. that means all of them are probably down there.
i sighed heavily and rubbed my eyes. i was still so exhausted from the night before. i honestly did not have the energy for this right now.
i set a time for another 30 minutes and put my phone down so i could sleep on it.
after getting some extra minutes of sleep, i got ready for whatever was about to happen. i put on my normal makeup and put on some clothes that jodi had lent to me.
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(my pic, just realized i forgot to add pants but like i imagined the shirt to be oversized so u couldnt see the shorts under srry l o l)
i sat on my bed staring off into space for another 10 minutes just thinking about all the things that could go wrong when i leave my sacred bedroom.
whatever. if they invited me down just to yell at me then there's nothing stopping me from just turning around and leaving.
i sighed heavily and grabbed my phone.
i finally left my bedroom of safety and trudged down the hallway. i walked a little slower than usual.
when the elevator opened and let me out to the ground floor, i stood in front of larry's apartment. i had never knocked before, since i would usually be with ash or sal who just let themselves in, so i hesitated while grabbing the door handle.
its fine. they're expecting me.
and i was a little late, thinking about the extra sleep and the time i took getting ready. and the staring off into space. shit.
